I just realised, yea i juz did, tat no one understands me. Tats gd. N bad. Depending on who u r. If u r a criminal gd. If u r anybody else then forgt it. I doubt i will ever change. Too bad fer mi and all ard mi and all goin-to-be-ard-mi pple.

Am i tat gd in reading other pple's behaviour? N y do i always form perceptions of them based on tat? Wait tats normal rite. Forming perceptions of a person's character frm the way he/she behaves. No, actually not. Not whn u think u r perfect in doin so. I relly hope im nt perfect. In fact i hope i was lousy. How i wish i was dumber. How i wish i cldnt, and thus, wldnt, think so much.

Much s it is possible to quit smoking or drugs, the above second nature of myself seems alrdy a part of mi. Unseparable, conjoined, intertwined as one.

I need a time-out. A time-out from myself.

Phew. Survived another day in camp. Was kinda busy but...manageable, at times. N i juz realised i lost one of my reports. Uh huh, im starting to screw things up aft taking over frm my u/s....lol. Tried to clear up all the mess bfore i left camp s tml i wldnt b in camp bt in east coast park. Cleared up most, of course, table manners say u shldnt wipe ur bowl of soup sparkling clean, so i had to leave some behind.

Just as i was about to leave camp the hottie, i mean horti gal (horticulturist gal) came into the office to giv mi sm documents. Looks like she's having an internal transfer in her company frm nxt mon. Aww....means tat i cant c her anymore boohoo. N surprising she's my age too. Then bfore she left my other female colleague 1 yr older said smth like its my last day to noe the horti gal liaoz. Walao. Then whn i wanted to leave camp it rained donkeys and monkeys zzz. I wanted to take a ride frm colleague but...he pangsei mi zzz. In the end my shoes n part of my jeans were wet by the time i reached the busstop. I cld feel the squishing sound of the drenched socks whnever i stepped down on my feet zzz.

Was a little late fer tuition. Holy cows. Whn i reached there, bfore i cld say "Hi Auntie", she picked up a cane n whacked twice on both my tutees each. Holy cows, or canes. Then i dun dare say anything else and went to start tuition. Upon reaching the room, the p5 guy started crying. N started cursing his mum abt being unfair and abusing him etc. Oh well, juz like who i was in the past. Consoled him and managed to get thru the tuition rather smoothly. Smoked him all the way. Nah, jk lar lol.

Ya tml east coast park fer mi. But its nt clz outing. Trying to c if my ankle will still b attached to my leg after 15km a nt. After tat take mc. Then rest of the day off. Lalala. Tml nite mayb stayingover, but wait cannot hav to brush teeth. So onli nite activities till pretty late then. Or pretty early lol.

Went to wrk in the morn. Run cancelled due to dark clouds. Saved my ankle fer another day. Left aft lunch fer course. The course onli 3 pple -.- N i dun hav account to try out smmore cause nvr create. -.- Then aft course still go back camp. Dunnoe wat was i tinking. My onli reward was my chief clerk treating us to durians. Again haha. I ate a few. Omg the whole office stunk like there was a dead corpse in there sia. In the end we had to open the windows. Then went home.

In the bus ride home slept quite soundly. Too soundly. In the end i tink i knocked against the lady beside mi ard 5,6 times? Upon the sixth time then she gave mi a dagger-stare. N i was dam paiseh so i said sorry. Luckily my stop was near if nt i wld hav knocked against her smmore liaoz lol. Argh...my stomach hurts now....ouch....

Oo. I tink i shldnt giv advice to pple in matters which i myself suck at. Im so sry if i was the cause of any mishap. But i hav a feeling all is not lost yet. All the best my fren.

Lol, my pri 2 tutee kip like to sa jiao wif mi whnever she wans her way. Tsktsk. At least she's getting more matured. I was a little mad at her fer nt doin her wrk and even worse kip gettin distracted by little stuff. The onli gd thing i can derive frm tat is i get paid fer doin nth, which if u look at it in another perspective is also bad. But i guess it prolly is the stress in camp which i face as well. Even during tuition i got a call frm my sgt. Nice. What i like abt her n her bro is that watever comments they make or say are perfectly innocently honest. Kids. Little angels (/devils) descending upon us from heaven. Ahh....

As my u/s ORD date gets closer, the more stuff i hav to close fer him and open fer myself. Onli spiritually (which i doubt so too) present in office, it is definitely a challenge to uphold the reputation he has built up fer the current post im holding. Tml wanted to take off fer the morn then go fer my course in the noon bt forgt to ask my dy head abt it. So im gonna b a gd boi n go frm wrk aft lunch tml. Darn tat means liferun tml. Darn tat means another chance to b a handicap again. Tink my dy head is starting to dislike mi. Oh well. Im gettin used to it anyway.

Personally devoured around 2 whole durians. Im nt relly a big fan of durians but once in a while, i cant relly stop whn i start, which is kinda bad. I often end up overstuffing myself like a pig and felt relly awful wif all the murky stuff churning in my stomach. Today was slightly beta. Haha. The onli thing i dun like is tat the smell of durian will stay on ur hands and ur breath will still stink the day after. Eww. Dun relly like tat kinda durian liaoz.

Thx bro fer organising the clz outing. (Although i also help a bit to giv ideas eh heh) But its kinda boring if like less than half of the clz turn out. Haiz. Ok i shall restrain my impeccable-trouble-courting mouth (or hands) frm saying (or typing) smth sacarstic. *slaps myself* Going to slp now. 2 days down. Im 2 yrs down. Not NS. Its my other liability, my life.

Talk about monday blues. The morning run of 5km was a little torturing. I ran wif my ex-coursemates. They were rather fast, either that or i hadnt been running much, which i tink is a more truthful explanation. Luckily one of them cldnt catch up so i ran wif him to encourage him. After tat ran an extra rd rd the track. First time i saw my head in liferun lol. Argh! N my ankle! Seriously, i dunnoe wats wrong wif my left ankle since the last time i played soccer wif my old court shoes. Everytime it lands in tat inner position when you try to bend ur knee inwards, it hurts. A little aggravation towards tat position n it hurts. It hurts n it hurts n it hurts. U noe hw much i hate injuries. I tink i wld die living wif multiple long term injuries. Cant do this and that. Zzz. Horrible. Like totally (wif an aussie slang). hahah.

Next up, breakfast. I bought my usual mee cum egg cum hash brown cum, i mean combo, n a refreshing cup of ribena. Walking to my seat, my left hand holding the paper plate of my mee felt a little crack of the plate, then even before my super duper uber lightning quick reflexes could react at all, the mee met the floor quicker than the plate cld. Obviously the floor was starving.

I shrugged to myself, accepted my thanks frm the floor, then asked the uncle embarrassingly fer a broom n dustpan to clean up the leftovers. Then the uncle asked mi to take another plate. But of cos i rejected his offer cause it wasnt his fault tat the floor was hungry anyway. 5 mins ltr sipping my ribena and my fren eating his plate of mee, the uncle brought another plate to mi wif egg and hash brown. Argh. Y shld he pay fer feeding the floor. It shld hav been mi doin the honour. I tried to pay him but he swept it away wif such certainty tat i retracted my note realising tat i din wan to create a scene fer his gesture of goodwill in front of his store. Thanks uncle.

The rest of the day went wif a few more bumps here and there but nth new. Oya my sec clzmate who juz enlisted jio us go play bball tis sat. Ooo...haha i tink he muz b dam sian diao now. Im tired lar. Ytd slept after midnite. My fatty bro is sick. Lol. Tat asshole. Having fever. Ahh...prolly burning his fats away hahahaha. Get well soon! =)

Wa my tutee's nt relly gd at fractions.

Watched dark knight. Was nice but draggy. Discussed abt the movie aft it. Tats abt it. Soon it will be another new and long week.

I never meant to hurt anyone frm the day I knew wat hurt was. Those who know mi knows. To all I did, I sincerely apologise. No hard feelings. Curse and swear at me if you have to. Or perhaps find a chance to know me better. The choice is yours.

Swam. Din relly hav the drive to swim tat long. Motivated myself by following one rather bulky adult to and fro. After he stopped, or wat i suspect so if he din change his goggles, or weight, I swam another 2 lengths juz fer pleasure. It was then whn i truly felt poetry in motion in swimming. Well, robotic i wld admit, bt...lets juz say i din feel a bit tired during tat period. Reason i stopped was cause my ears were thirsty and were attempting to take a sip or two frm the pool.

Slacked the whole afternoon away. Then din go out afterall. Half-expected it anyways. Heh. In the end felt like an idiot changing frm going out clothes to home clothes. Eh wat. Wipe tat shock expressions of ur faces. Ya. My home clothes not = going out clothes alrdy. Upgrade liaoz zzz.

Tml morn gt tuition. Mayb joining frens at noon. All the way till nite. Dun go home so late hor. Monday hav to bk in one. Sianz. Run again. Die le lar ahm. 21km. Zzz. N im going fer this manpower course wif my 1st 3 mths buddy whn i was on course. Lol. Tat idiot. Wld b nice to c an old pal.

Oya juz realised smth. The 2 yrs in army almost reflects the path of life everyone takes. First u go undergo basic military training aka schooling and education. Then u go on course aka university. After u pass out aka graduate, you go to units to ply ur trade aka go out into the society and find a job. Then u understudy someone aka learning frm seniors to know more abt ur job scope n hw to do it well. After tat ur upperstudy ORDs aka u become independent and start to excel in wat u do (or try to). Also, you begin to start a family and ur career is on track. Then ur understudy comes aka ur children grows up and are old enuf to support you and you are on ur way to enjoying old age. Lastly, you ORD and c hw ur understudy has blossomed under ur guidance aka ur children start to hav their families and careers and u r one step away frm eternal peace. Ahhh... a birth of a new flame replacing the extinguished diminishing one. Welcome to the circle of life.

Changed my shoe at queensway once again. Had to pay another 10 bucks cause i wore it alrdy. I no choice so pay lor since i wldnt wear the shoes if they werent changed cause they were simply too small fer mi.

My u/s has had his last day ytd alrdy. He says tat he coming back on mon to settle some stuff regarding my taking over frm him. Looks like its all on my own now. Now new funds have arrived. Stupid retarded superior now then put in. Kinda dumb to go thru all the trouble huh. Now i hav to modify my manual tracking again zzz. My u/s did a nice job teaching mi all he cld. I sincerely thank him fer tat n wish him all the best nxt time. Again. Ha. One more thing dam embarrassing. I wanted to find smone in camp then i accidentally called one of my frens due to same identity. Then i din realise until i put down the phone. Walau dam malu sia. -.-

Tonite goin to eat dinner outside. Actually wanted to watch movie bt nt free. Oh well. No more hellboy liaoz. Tml batman n dinner out. Cldnt make it fer ball cause gt tuition. Paiseh lar. Their CA one mth's time liaoz. Which means I might hav to teach fer onli a month more hahah. Eh bt hopefully not lar cause i dun tink i tat lousy lor zzz. Now, mayb swimming fer mi.