What do u do when u find ur friends starting to become pple whom...u hav nvr noe them s? What do u do when they simply change? Act s thou nothing ever happened? That's my diplomatic yet cowardly approach. Call it a lack of depth in friendships, but i simply feel its juz a facade, everything we do in each other's company, juz because we simply have little choices. Having being in the company of 5 guys in the class, which happens to be the onli ones, our relationship well...lets juz say simply nt the way i wld like it to be. Hard s i might try, i juz simply cant keep the ball rolling when the ball's on their court. Fatigue soon comes into play n well, i juz live with it. Someday i wld probably ask the truth...but be it a barrage of unpleasant vulgarities or simply refusal to tell, i have a bad feeling tat i ain't gona kip in close contact wif my college friends, cept those frm sec sch.
What abt gals u might ask. Sure my class has plenty: 19 compared to the 6 of us guys. Hmm...how many times hav i ever communicated wif anyone of them in my entire college life...take note...it is ANYONE. Definitely nt more than a preschooler can handle i conclude. Arh well, hav heard enuf comments abt mi being anti-social n stuff but come on man, sometimes i simply am too lazy to start a conversation, esp wif a gal, or shld i say someone whom im afraid wld offend unintentionally. Offended a few in my life no doubt and starting to live a phobia too. Paranoid? Probabaly.
When i sit down n count the friends whom i might call if i were to collapse suddenly, amazingly or shld i say unfortunately, i onli hav a few to turn to. A wide social circle? What's the use when all r merely aquaintances but nt bosom ones?
Am i worried abt the whole issue on inter-personal relationsips? Not at all. A lvls r much more impt to mi at this moment. Whether i intend to continue a lifestyle devoid of feminity, well the answer i can onli giv u after november. Juz remembered wat a debater in my school said," In our daily lives, we continue to play hide-and-seek with our emotions, onli thing is, we onli get half as much fun s we do in our childhood". Point made, over and out.

I got back my mid-yr results. To mi it wasn't wat i wld expect. BBDE and C6 fer general paper. After wat i deemed was the most productive of studying periods in the June "holidays", the results were disappointing, to mi at least. My classmates say that my results were good, but i feel otherwise. Actually, i feel that wat one of my other friends frm other colleges commented abt teenagers nowadays is very true. We just have too many distractions. Frm BGR to games to social gatherings, well the list just goes on. My friends who commented my results were good, well of course they did relatively worse than mi, but IMHO, they just have yet to unleash their full potential. Distractions i stress once again, are just too great fer our current batch of teens. My aim fer the A lvls, well to be honest, is all As. Well, whose isn't? I have much more illustrious friends who score like As with no sweat, well, they are my idols. Better start studying soon cause the As ain't a yr away.

Let mi relate to u an incident which i found was, well, was "wth". Imagine ur friend accusing you of losing her friend's notes which she called you to pass to the latter during the lesson. If the imagining part was bad enuf, my experiencing it was much worse i assure you. Juz s i was ready to go fer a well deserved lunch after another tiring day at sch, she blasted at mi, asking mi where did i pass the notes to. I replied "to my friend" and i proceeded to ask him the same qns, except in a MUCH friendlier tone. Before i cld explain tat the girl whom my friend passed to probably did not hear the instructions to pass to the particular friend, she blasted away again. "So its your responsibility huh?" When i replied "no" and proceeded to attempt to explain which she DID listen, she blasted again "So u tryin to shrink responsibility?" Feeling bewildered and faced with such an unreasonable accuser, i cut the pointless argument short by admitting that it was my mistake. Did i do the right thing? Anyway, i did not even utter a word of vulgarity, not even under my breath, during the whole francas. What can i conclude? It probably is my destiny.

One stepover. Soccer can be said to be one my favourites in my life. If onli Singapore didn't have such a rigid and long education system, i probably would have honed my skills as a footballer on the pitch. Not that im really good, but well i just enjoy the things u get do with just a ball. Either get tricked or trick. Cool huh? That i can assure you is definitely not one of my destiny. Right now, its only the As fer mi.

As a student, one's priority is to achieve good grades primarily and in the process have an "all-rounded" education, as stated in the mission of the Ministry of Education of Singapore. That mission absolutely contradicts what the truth is currently. The flaws of the education are there for many to witness and i once again emphasise that there can be no other way to have an "all-rounded" education if the pursue for perfect grades is ever so present.
Back to myself, just attained my midyrs results and dude, they suck. Can be said to have been the worse i ever done in my schooling career(if it ever is considered one), but well, the fact is im degenerating as what one of my pals described himself some yrs back. Currently he is owning exams, trust mi, literally owning. Mi? Owing's more like it. Well well, that's reality for mi, i just have to admit i ain't that good after all. What i nid is MUCH more work n practise. And not to mention MUCH less distraction. That said. I hope on July 07 2006, it will be the last time i ever used a computer to entertain myself in the virtual world of gaming.
Games day. Well stayed back to watch a few entertaining matches of soccer despite a goal drought by the teams played n watched a match of vball. Haiz, just disappointed that i couldn't stick a foot or hand in either sport, both of which i would have enjoyed thoroughly. Back to games now fer the time being.

The birth of new blog. I shalln't elaborate further. Just another source of entertainment in my far from enriching life. All that I shall write will not filtered but however will fulfill legal obilgations. That much said, my first post is complete.