2nd day of wrk. Today i went reached office at 850. Then i saw through the door was dark so i sat outside to wait fer boss. After 10 mins at 900, a woman came out of the office beside n gave mi the y-in-the-world-r-u-sitting-here look. Then i realised there cld b a possiblity that the door might b covered wif an opaque sheet of paper. No prizes fer guessing whether there actually was. My day started on a bright note. Literally. I used my boss laptop again and being the brat that i was, i signed in messenger due to boredom. I put busy status. Then i had to ask my boss abt smthing. Just s i opened my mouth, my friend talked to mi. Blink. Blink. I cld sense my boss eyes blinking at the same rate s the messenger minimized window was blinking back at him. After he told mi wat to do, he walked off s thou he saw nth. Unless u r blind, anyone cld hav noticed the blinking icon. Not soon after lunch, he changed my laptop to a computer liaoz. This time w/o internet connection. Orh...sad. Anyway fer lunch we went swensens fer farewell to one of the colleagues. The one who warned mi abt the working environment there. Okayyy, 2nd day onli. I've yet to experience wat he experienced in a mth. To make readers jealous, or try to anyway, i ate chicken cutlet, soup of the day, sm icecream cake dessert and to top it off, EARTHQUAKE icecream and one pan ice-cream. Whoa delicious. I remember the last time i went swensens wif my class i considered onli having a glass of plain water fer dinner. Yea anyway my friend gt the rest of the day off after returning to the office since there was nothing left fer him to do. He had to bring his dad to c the doc then prolly a movie. He mentioned abt meeting mi this sat. I think i shld go buy a pair of jeans this wkend. Rite nw, im still employed dun worry. Not sacked, yet. After wrk i ran like 1km or so to jacksons place. Darn it my colleagues and a passer-by tricked mi by saying that it was juz "nearby" or "infront". I bought 2 packets of D-24 durians pre-pared. No comments fer the invention of the new word. Then before that i met my boss. He was buying sm daily necessities fer the colleagues wrking OT. Yea im a slacker XD. Then he offered to send mi hm. Coooll. Tml i'll b gettin a ride frm him to wrk too. N the day after..blahblah. Wa if hes this nice fer the nxt 2 plus mths...wa i luv wrking! Ok lets nt get sacked first. Oya tml onwards im gona try to OT s many hrs s i can. Haiz this means i've gotta sacrifice my fav tv shows le T_T. Well no pain no gain. Here's a poem in appreciation frm my ex-colleague. Yea that guy. Dun loathe it.

~Backstabbed~
Laughing faces with wide smiles galore,
Enjoyment we exude till the very last pimple pore.
What we actually see we try to perceive,
However when we just that they serve only to deceive.

Outside the realms of happily-ever-after,
There is all but loads of laughter.
Smiles in disguise are actually frowns,
Handshakes are celebrations of your downs.

If one asks me about one thing i desire,
I have no wish for a boundless empire.
Yet about the thing which I detest,
Knife-back-piercers are not even fit to be called a pest.

First day of wrk. Wrking hrs: 9 to 6. Wrking place: Macpherson. Darn it man, i think this job is quite alrite, but it seems that i may hav shot myself in the foot on the first day of wrk. Phew, lucky i didnt receive any call telling mi there was no nid fer mi to go wrk the nxt day. Guess wat i did. Being bored during the last few hrs of wrk, i decided to sign in windows messenger. Nono, that aint the bad pt yet. The climax is, the laptop i was using belonged to my boss. Nono, it hasnt ended yet. The perfect conclusion is: i forgt to sign out. YEA. Z.Z.Z. Lets hope my boss didnt realise it n shut down the laptop immed after he checked his email soon after i left. Watever. I juz hope i can last. Or the boss is able to outlast my antics. One of my colleagues there, a 17-yr-old is quitting tml. Reason? Simple. Cause the few colleagues that we hav there r hypocrites. The boss? A little cynical according to him. He lasted one month there thou. I juz hope i will b able to wrk happily till i begin my NS. The boss was quite ok to mi. Morning he forgt to bring the office keys fer the FIRST time. Then we went nearby cafeteria had drinks. They were on him btw. Budden he seemed quite nice ltr. Although...that might change in juz 24 hrs. Lets hope tml will b gd. N i can continue to wrk. Ok speaking of the new pal i made there who's quitting tml. What he said today to mi opened my eyes to another world, sadly one filled wif daggers. Backstabbers he meant. A vicious cycle he said this was, and unfortunately this world will definitely hold some of them. Worst still, it is these people who ultimately survive. He told mi that i had no wrk experience. Smthings u shld n shld nt do or say in the office in front of the staff and boss. Cool, office etiquette chapter 1. Let's hope i can complete this course before i get expelled. Anyway, today's entry is super early. Darn tml i've gotta wrk fer an extra half hr cause i went off earlier to go hm wif my friend today. Tml...is another day...

Brrr....today's morning swim was...colddd... Dam i shld hav listened to my nose and not went fer the swim. Anyway went swimming and at first it was super cold the water. Yea COLD i shall emphasise. I waited fer abt 15 mins before entering the pool and despite my best of attempts to kip myself warm i still failed. Coupled wif a chilling wind and a bright sunny weather wif cold water, I juz felt warm overall, that is half cold half hot. Obviously I caught a cold and sneezed like the whole pool soon filled wif my mucus. Ok a little exaggeration there but u get the point. I kept sneezing and after an hour of torture in the pool i finally gave up and went to bathe. My troubles didnt end there. I soon realised as soon as i got out of the pool that i forgt to bring my towel along. Cool. So i wore back my original clothes while my friend swam fer another half hr. After that he bathed and i played his psp meanwhile. At first he suggested to go gym after swimming cause the latter was kinda unproductive. But i was tired of goin EVERY wkday so i said no-no. Then we went mac and ate. Then he accompany mi go buy paint and wan-ton skin. After that he bought Straits Times to find job haha. Oh well...then i went home wif 7 litres of white nippon paint. No lar my mum gave mi a lift, my fitness is reserved fer army btw. Went home and at 315 i started to solo paint the ceiling. 530 i stopped. Wa tired sia. That's y my blog entry today is earlier than usual. Another reason fer entrying earlier is cause I gt a job call-up today. Tml start work. In case i didnt mention, my friend who found a job last friday quit le. He kana scammed. I hope i wun hav the same experience tml. Dun tell mi all my transport fares hav resulted in a scam. Cool. Alrite its almost tml. I gotta rest nw. Pls dun let tml b a scam. As fer whether it relly is...well...time will tell i guess. Haiz.

O...army guys hav to book in alrdy, hw the weekends fly huh. Darn it man, one of my army friends started msn convo wif mi but i was playin then when i minimize tat time i press close to sm vector service then in the end his window also close. zzz. Anyway hope it isnt that impt. Ok today morning i play com, then later at around one, decided to go slp. Then my father say mi lazy, play finish alrdy go slp etc. Then he call mi go paint house and i agreed readily. Haha, i think i did like onli half of the job and he did the rest. Plus, he also helped mi to mix the paint and cover stuff, so tat means he did more work than mi when i was supposed to do all the work. How filial of mi. Not onli tat, after doin the balcony and my bedroom, I decided to go fer a nap, leaving my father to solo the master bedroom. Good job kiddo. But i woke up due to the stupid chilling wind and just in time to help out in the study room. At least i contributed, bleh. Anyway I ended at around 6 plus fer dinner. Whoa painting is nt an easy task sia. No wonder pple who find painters always want experienced ones. Now i noe. Tml morning goin swimming wif friend. Have to buy more paint too and wanton skin fer mum. Haiz hope i can swim fer as long s i like.
Tml marks the start of a new week and soon a new month. I hope some kind person employs mi soon. Oh well, I tried my best tats all i can say. People say that trying your best is gd enuf. At least u noe u put in 101% of effort and there's really nothing u can do if u still fail. Wrong dudes, there can onli b no regrets when u put in ur best AND pass. How good is ur best actually? You never relly noe do u?

This morning actually wanted to go gym de, but my friend tricked mi zzz, the gym door locked sian. I reached at 930, then waited fer his friends to play soccer until 11 plus, then they came at last. Meanwhile I played his PSP, finally i could score a goal against a difficulty 3 opponent. Haiz I'm juz not gd at such games given tat i hav no consoles at home which i could hug 24/7. Finally we played soccer, at first 5v5 then became 6v6 in basketball court. Oya i saw my sch basketball player there too playing basketball lol. Wa conclusion after playing: I super noob. Ok lar i came to this conclusion before but i juz refused to admit it lar...zzz...ya ok i'm admitting it now. First major blunder: I stepover and tried to drag the ball but no strength n i juz gifted the ball to the opponent. Cool. That like set the mood fer the day. We played till one plus under slight drizzle, then I heard them talking about army. Super funny sia, cant wait to get into army soon. Lol. Then went home nap then went somerset to buy clothes wif cousin n mum n aunt n bro. I bought 2 shirts, 1 polo tee and the other normal tee, and 1 pair of pants. Wa quite cheap lar the prices and the design not bad, amazing considering u r at orchard district. I wan to buy a pair of jeans soon, prolly nxt wk. Anyway while i was making my way from john little to robinson's i saw 2 of my secondary schoolmates, a guy n a gal. No lar i dun think they stead. Then its like the guy and gal look at mi once first n i looked at them. Then i think the guy nvr c mi or dun wan to c mi. Then i waited fer them to make the first move to wave or smthing, then the gal kip looking at mi but nvr wave lol. Then i also dun wan to wave. Then in the end we kip looking at each other until we lost sight haha. Super funny sia. Aiya then no more shou ren alrdy, boring considering it is saturday nite at orchard. I came back at 12 ba cause also went to friend's house to play bridge. A game of dota then this entry. Ok i think i beta stop now. Cause if i dun slp my father wun and i dun wan him to slp so late since he always does so..zzz. One thing i learnt in sec sch, do NOT sabo pple. N i hate pple like this too. Signing out.

Welcome back one and all army dudes. Today is prolly the first bookout of ur army career fer many. Whoa no wonder my msn list has more pple online today. Hmm, I am dam curious to c their new hairstyles. Tomorrow goin gym in the morning, then mayb there's soccer fer a few hours...cool i haven been running in quite a while nw...then i guess i will juz laze ard in the afternoon. I wan to go army leh. Its like a whole adventure waiting for mi to discover. I juz hope I dun screw things up when my time comes, fer army enlistment tat is. Shoot, i've gotta paint the hse before CNY which is soon. Haiz, hope i get a job soon (fer the umpteenth time) and hope one day i will do everything i've gotta do. Fer mi there seems to b an endless list of to-do stuff...bleh..hw nice. Alrite Im beat. Fer all those out there who r smelling ur hm bed fer the first time in 2 wks, welcome home. Have a pleasant night.

A poem I shall think on the spot now. It's been some time since i last thought of one, crappy or not.

Break of dawn settles on the horizon landscape,
Oblivious was I to the arising crimson tape.
Riding on the turbulent time waves,
Erratic claps were felt even in caves.
Deep beneath me purpose only could gape.

Sometimes, I relly do wonder if the society out there which claims to be practical instead of shallow do exist. Wat m i exactly referring to? Looks. Countless times in schools we have been asked to debate on whether good looks is really wat one relly nid. Is a blessing or a misfortune? Those who have been endowed might say a misfortune, but those whom r lacking wld say a blessing. It's a matter of the pros outweighing the cons and etc. but fer mi who falls in the latter category, I guess I would rather have the looks. That is in addition to who im. Not that Im a really great person, but oh well, familiarity is my cup of tea. Dun ask mi y im raising this issue at this juncture of time. Given the fact that this blog does nt anymore remain s my own private diary where no one who noes mi noes abt it, I shall not elaborate further. I wonder sometimes wat relly attracts or de-tracts one person from another. But watever it is, I bet my life looks play an important role. Latest update: my friend got a job le, starting wrk tml. That leaves mi, still in my humble abode everyday. Wasting life...is this wat they call it? Not a gd feeling at all dude, not at all.

Anyway today went for another job interview. Dun ask mi if i gt scammed again or nt. The answer is obvious. It was like another schoolmate was also applying fer the same job but i did not recognise her until i saw her form and i was quite paiseh, lol. Think she recognised mi thou but she also nvr say hi. So nt my fault entirely. Then went mac wif friend. Saw two of my pri sch friend's bros. They are twins. The last time i saw them was in pri sch. Now 1 has dyed hair, the other puts his legs on the mac chairs. Haiz, alloy, if ever by fate u r reading this, no offense but put ur bros on the rite track. They r in bad company dude. Then played winning eleven 9 on my friend PSP. Whoa a whooping 490 bucks spent on a mini playstation which can also play songs. Ouch, even a spender like mi wldnt go fer such expensive stuff. Tomorrow...I dunnoe wat tml brings in store for mi. Watever i noe is that, I'm gona wake up tml morning feeling bored. Yes, I'm gona wake up, I think. Dun worry no suicidal tendencies here, juz a way of relieving boredom stress. Whoa new term: "boredom stress"...

Ouch! Just realised I gt sunburnt when i tossed in bed last nite and felt a sensational pain on my shoulders. Argh shld hav known beta than to stay in the pool fer 3 hrs. Supposed to have gone back to sec sch to play friendly against juniors but lazy n sunburnt so ps them. Went to visit my grandfather n cousin after a nap then watched tv. Orh man life is getting boring. How worse can it get?

Hmm...another jobless day fer mi... Had quite a lot of fun at the pool wif 3 of my friends...n its the swimming pool btw. Whoa the sun was rather hot and the water was dam cold n there was wind blowing making mi in a dilenma(i nvr relly knew how to spell this word in my entire life, pardon mi) whether to b in the pool or out of it. Haha taught 2 of my friends how to swim, quite cute lar they all, but i think crash course u will not the basics rite de. Dun worry guys another day! I beta hope my strokes r correct or else they will end up making a fool of themselves in public pools thanks to mi. Hey wait, if it is the latter...then all these times i swam in my life...a fool?!?! Z.z.z. Then later went to bugis wif friend to c wif him psp. Wa i think the latest craze is psp nw, its like alrdy 2 pple whom i worked wif or knew have decided to buy one. There could b more i guess...its onli whether i know of. Haiyo my financial resources r trickling away... today i had to use another 50 dollar note...hope i can get a job soon...zzz my dream job... Darn i forgt wat to type abt le. Oh yes i remembered! According to my mum, the O lvls results r comin out on Feb 9th, which is juz 2 wks or more away!!! N according to my friend who says tat A lvls results r a wk after the Os, im gona get mine in 3 wks time!!! Omg, darn it dude, its do-or-die nw. Reality check: Anything less than 4 As n i can onli smell scholarship applications, yea smell nt even TRY to apply dude. My friend juz got into the nxt round of interview at DSTA. Omg tat is like wat i wld like lar...he has almost everything i wld like to hav currently btw...wow. I wish him the best of luck and hope tat he can get a scholarship fast, so that he wun compete wif mi fer others when results r released, hahaha!! Haiz, m i onli able to dream of a scholarship? Lets c, come april 12th the day when i enlist fer NS, i shld noe my fate. Bless mi.

Walau dam sian again, spent the whole day TRYING to find a job with a friend and failed, again. Then in the end we went to check out psp v1.5 and crashed the arcade. Yay tml can go swimming wif 3 friends le...haha...quite long nvr swim le. This is gona b the first time im swimming in 2007 man! I think im gona learn excel le. Excel seems easier than flash. At least the no. of versions of excel has is lesser than flash...i think. Ok let's juz see how first. Oh ya then today also saw my classmate. Wa sick she super workaholic man, first work s accounts assistant frm 8.30 to 5.30 then 7pm give tuition till 9 pm. Whoa! Talk about an enriching life! Haiya, a day job like hers will do mi very well...In fact my dream...bleh. Its gettin late, n i hav nothing else to say anyway. Start of a new day i guess...

Oh my 20th post...thought my posts wldnt last this far in this dilapidated blog of mine. Anyway nice timing fer this post too...2.22am is the time rite nw. And 8 people on msn rite nw. Quiet nite too btw. I think I possess a very serious weakness and that is non-seriousness. And if u noticed this word existent or not has not popped up in my blog fer the first time. Just a few days ago, i felt like learning flash software frm a book i borrowed from a library. Now, i feel like uninstalling the program from my ever-slowing-down computer. Bleh, 3 minutes of enthusiasm the chinese call it. Wait, make tat 3 days fer my case. I think all who truly know mi have seen this flaw of mine...n i'm pretty sure it began at an early age of even primary 6. I reckon its enuf to ruin my life at sm point or another if i dun start to correct it, even if its the onli flaw i possess, which is unfortunately not the case. Darn, i've got to stop myself. Irony huh, oh well. Hmm, how i wish i could get a job ard town soon...ah...i've got everything planned out. After work, gym workout then home sweet home, muacks, perfect. Sadly everything doesnt always turn out the way i plan them out to be. Not that it turns out well in my favour, forget it i shall stop whinning about the harsh realities of life, or rather MY life. Hey man, i just realised my life aint that bad afterall. I'm beta than many, and as they say count ur blessings. Yea yea, im gona do just that. No sarcasm meant, onli truth. Someone asked mi once, "Will the real you pls stand up?" Good question, i guess every part of mi is real. The onli problem is how well do u actually know someone to know that he or she is real. Ta-da-ching! Alrite 2.36am. Time for mi to hav my second supper. Oh boy, i'm having like 6 meals a day but i'm not gettin any heavier n tats nt a gd thing fer an underweight soul floating around. Tra-la-la...

Yes, at last i went to the library today, after 3 days of deciding to. Anyway i went to visit gym today too n wow my friend is fitter than mi man...considering that we r all abt the same size. My running on the treadmill was super embarrassing. At first i started off wif 6.0 speed thinking mayb i wld run fer half hr or so, then my friend ran at 10.0 n increased to 12.0 soon after. After running fer a minute, i realised the aunty beside mi was running at 7.0 speed fer 15 mins le...N i was like omg. So of course young man ma, cannot so slack n paiseh, so juz chiong till 8.0 speed then 10.0 n i think i stopped there. Wait i think i tried 12.0, ok anyway forgt it ran 2km onli,zzz. Then my friend teach mi a lot of weights stuff. After doin 2 types then he challenge mi if i can still do 15 pullups he treat mi lunch. Darn it man, i did onli 12. Oh well, anyway we finished off wif more weights n went off to lib. How i wished i had discovered the pleasantries of the library early in my education life. It beats studying at home definitely being crowded by 2 younger bros who converse in computer games stuff almost all the time. Hah, the pros n cons of having many siblings. Anyhow, given a choice, i wld nt hav exchanged my bros fer anything else. Bros, thou i dun say it to u guys but i luv u guys. Mum n Dad dun b jealous, i luv u too. My mind wandered off again when i was making my way home. Hmm, the question of the usefulness of my existence came into doubt once again. If i had nt existed, wld the world b a beta place? Wld my friends hav beta lives? Wld my family b a happier one? Mayb the answer to my disappointment wld b yes. Wa Im tired le, my decision to go to this sunday's outing still tilts towards the negative pole. Shld i go or nt? Im sure smthing will happen to make my final decision a certain one.

Shrilling silence slicing the still of night,
Dusty dreams drying up as the last fight.
Hosting hopes high as the heightened star,
Illuminating incredulousness I know they are unlikely to be on par.

Whoa whoa today's kbox session was a blast! I blasted my voice till i was nearly hoarse and had to spend a significant amount of energy juz to talk to my friends 20cm away frm mi. Quite high were we n fun we had fer sure. We caught up a little wif old times n present and dam it! I didnt get a chance to visit the library today. Oh well, there's always tml i guess since im unemployed still. Right nw my voice is alrite i guess, ok i noe, like who cares? Anyway, i spent 10 bucks on playin time crisis 4 n i cant even get pass the first stage!!! OMG, i noe, i amazed too, at my inability to proceed to a higher lvl of playin. But hey, a game costs 2 bucks, so...i onli tried it 5 times man. Pardon mi. Dun worry either i lose interest in it or im gona go bankrupt cause of it. Argh, i forgt the A lvl results r comin out in a mth or so. Anything less than 4 As fer mi n i will prolly nt enjoy that day. I juz hope tat my un-seriousness, if there is ever such a word, doesnt reflect in my grades. Orh man, the harsh fact of reality. Reality's always harsh i guess, onli thing tat differs is to whom. Hope my future wun b s bleak s i think it will b. Juz smthing like my older bro, n oh man, huala! My dream...haha ok...reality check again...the end.

Today i went on a wild goose chase just fer a job that will occupy mi fer at least 5 days a wk. Well s the previous sentence suggested, the answer to whether i hav one is rather obvious. Hmm...im rotting away at hm playing dota and the only useful things i do...wait make tat useful...is vacuuming the floor fer my mum. Ok cool huh. Welcome to my life. I swear that tml im gona go to a stupid library to borrow a bk or two so that i can occupy myself more freely. Hmm...the clz outing this sunday...ooops sry i aint goin pal. anyway happy b'dae to the gal in my clz n sry i cldnt make it. Partly due to personal reasons gal, blame mi if u muz, no wrong there, cause even i blame myself. Anyway enjoy my friends. Friends. Speaking of which there aint many ard mi anymore. I cannot stress my desire to start serving my time in NS asap. Even if u tell mi to serve an extra mth, i cld juz agree to it. Its juz so tough to get used to life w/o anything, anything proper that is. Tml's another outing wif close friends. Lookin forward to it. Anyway the Life paper said smthing abt man n women nt able to b purely close friends w/o having the intention to marry the other. Oh well... human complexities. I'm juz too tired to think further. Anyway im gona crash, so long.

Today i went to Changi Airport to send my bro off. I thought abt wat i wanted to be in the future n the challenges i was abt to encounter, lots i supposed judging frm the situation i m in today. Interest or practicality? I dunnoe lets juz leave it up to fate n of course the results comin out at the end of Feb. Suddenly i feel matured. Just a feeling? A false one? Or izzit finally real? Oh well, i've prolly had enuf of games. If i do nt get a job soon, i think i wld prolly spend my time learning sm stuff. Dun ask mi wat cause i haven figured out yet. Anyway, lets juz leave it up to fate. Wait, nono, nt to fate, but to my actions this time. Sometimes, nature doesnt relly take the course u desire, but well i guess, its time to pull up my socks, literally too. So there, a post a month s n when i feel like it. My blog people. Enjoy if u can.

Without a cry,
Without a whimper,
My welled up tears dry,
My hoarse voice become a whisper.

A long awaited ending I have receive,
Whether a perfect one depends on how one perceive.
Just as though a woken-up dreamer,
I struggle to even lift a packet of coffee creamer.

A scar I fear will forever remain,
Its deepening I can never contain.
Overly emotional u may think i may b,
But i guess this is just...the real me.