Today was my last day at wrk. Officially that is. I will most prolly go back n help my boss mayb on monday n tuesday but of course onli in the afternoon. Oh well, who ask my boss treat mi very well. It's time to pay back the favour especially since he is relly desperate. Anyway today my boss treated us pizza hut as my farewell. The service there is pathetic lar. Anyway its the toa payoh branch. Super lousy. Then is like the new person is rather slow in scanning. Then my boss gf and my super kip psychoing mi to help them. Then in the end i finally told them tat i will call them if i'm coming down. So own time own target lor. Then i gave my boss gf present fer both of them and one fer my colleague. Then my boss after i left called mi but my hp no batt. So in the end i msged him i call him when i reach home which is 11 plus so i forgt it liaoz. Tml then call him lar. Then after wrk went to clarke quay fer my fren's company prize presentation ceremony. Walau dam long lar until 10 plus n i didnt have my dinner. Wa the place dam grand lar so many pple wear FORMAL which is blazers etc. while i wore bermudas and slippers. Luckily one of my frens also wore tat. Phew, i think we were the worst dressed among the pple there. Then after that went to meet my fren's super. Then he kip psychoing us to join the company. Anyway its a sales company. Budden pls lar...we onli c whose successful ones goin to stage and collecting their promotions...those who fail u dun get to c them at all... Tsktsk no credibility de... Then i after tat then realised tat one of my frens is the guy who invited mi de gf lar! Zzz, black horses sia...haha. Then i went central there packet mee then came home eat. Still haven finish yet. I have ard 12 days left before i go in army. Hmm...nt a v long time but a lot of things to do. Ok tired liaoz. Gt well soon gal. Zzzzzz.....

Tml's my last day at work YES! Dam song man today's the day i've been looking forward to. Whoa today my boss interviewed pple fer my position, haha due to insufficient time he decided to pick someone whom he did NOT interview, which my supervisor did of course. Walau my boss told my supervisor he wanted to psycho mi to stay till nxt tuesday lar, then my supervisor secretly msged mi. haha i alrdy expected my boss to do tat lar. Ohwell, been a gd employee has its disadvantages too...Anyway he started lor, budden surprisingly his gf was on my side lar. She said dun blame her fer nt helping mi cause she tried her best le. Suddenly rite when i was discussing my "strategy" wif both my super n his gf, both of them also started to psycho mi to stay till nxt tuesday. His gf said smthing like "when u leave he(my boss) like lose one hand like tat, somemore he is dam behind time liaoz...". Then my super said "yalar u scan fast leh, if u stay gt more chances of finishing the docs in time". Walau then i told them to stop haha. Then my super also told my boss tat if i stayed she wld b happier. Wa sei even sabo mi more. Budden i noe she nt lar. Oh well who cld resist mi anyway... In the end final showdown wif my boss, then at first i said i will tell him if i come down, i will call him. Then in the end i decided to tell him frankly tat i didnt wan to come down. I longed fer freedom... Then in the end he finally agreed. I felt quite bad lar cause he was a great boss to mi. Anyway i prepared a present fer him le and of course my colleague. Then i thanked him fer taking care of mi fer these two months and asked mi if i had any frens to intro haha. Then he say gt my quality gd enuf liaoz. If gt beta even beta. Lol, he relly quite shang shi wo lar. Then can c my colleague also quite she bu de. She kip saying y do i hav to quit etc. Haha. Haiz gona miss them too. Will dreams always remain as dreams? Or will dreams come true one day? Onli time will tell...

An answer i got today. Oh well, at least my heart was still in one piece, one of the smaller pieces it broke off from the original one. I hav to tell my boss i onli want to work till this friday cause i wan to enjoy but i dun hav the heart to tell him...oh well at least i told his gf le so he shld hav sm sort of mental preparation. I think nothing much le. Goin to hav an early slp. Nites.

Raffles. Wat will u think of when u hear this word? Mi? I will think of the equivalent of elite. Oh well, an interview I went to today, while i was waiting fer my turn, i encountered 3 rj-cians and a vj-cian. There was this rj guy who was 2 yrs older than mi n juz passed out of army. Whoa can c that he's eloquent and matured, qualities which seem to be lacking in mi and worse still essential fer any interviews. I doubt my chances of getting past the second rd even exist but still i dun mind another shot at meeting more students frm the top 5 colleges. It is...a gd experience. Anyhow, i realise that i muz definitely kip any hopes in watever i do relly low. Chances r they will nt b realised. So that i will hav mental preparation. 3 more final days of wrk. I have a great boss to speak the truth. A nice colleague. N a nice pantry. The documents i hate thou. Dusty and smelly, tats the onli bad pt perhaps. If i'm nt wrong i've taking 3 whole days off this mth. So that prolly means a mthly salary of less than 1k fer this mth. According to my colleague, if my boss is satisfied wif my performance he will prolly nt take those 3 days into account. Hopefully he doesnt. Omg if he doesnt he is dam zai lar. The onli bad thing is no cpf nia. Oya gota buy smthing fer my boss n colleague. If nt nt v nice. Smmore my colleague treated mi lunch ytd and taxi fares to n fro bugis. Moreover all the dvds i watch is she pay one. 7 per dvd. Wa sei cnfirm muz buy smthing sia. This sat is my fren's clz chalet. Then my fren call mi go swimming cause he dun wan to fail the swimming test in army. Sian, feel like goin to chalet to play majong leh, but scared feel dam extra. Oh well i shall c hw it goes.

A goal i set, a game u play
my feelings i bet, u call it a day.
Far from it, yet u say not
left a last bit, then u say not only a dot.

Now i noe how it feels like to have a life-long dream and to have a glimmer of hope, then it juz disappears in a puff of smoke. Wait there isnt even the puff of smoke. I guess this is juz part of life. Again. I think in dictionaries around the world, their definitions of the word life is horrendous. Lemme think of a typical one... Life- the form of existence of all living creatures. Ok something like tat i aint exactly gd in my english but i think it shld b it. Such a pathetic definition. In my dictionary life will definitely not hav a two liner definition. I think perhaps two books might suffice. Anyway, i can hear majong in my living room and its 243. Oh ya today saw my fren n his gf. Haha, didnt wan to disturb so i went off first. Then met another of my fren before tat. How qiao. Before went gym to do a bit of a workout. Ran 2 km i think. Think i gona die in army. I wana go ocs in army. Looks like its gona b rather tough. My neck's hurting. Gona rest....ouch...

ALAS! A break from work after almost 9 consecutive days. Phew. Tml is a break fer mi. Scholarship applications are done too. I can rest in peace now. As in alive and rest in peace. Anyway had dinner at dunnoe which restaurant in changi airport. Wa my colleague the son dam cute lar. Chubby and cute. Almost like my youngest bro, except her son is chubbier haha and younger. Very fun to play wif him. And he likes ultraman. Juz played finish dota wif frens, and all go slp le. Without even saying nites. zzz. Anyway i gt to slp too. Not feeling v well. Haiz. Guess its cause of the old documents. NITES.

Another taxing day at work. The onli consolation lies in the fact that today could b my last day working overtime. And my boss seems to be happy with the progress. So that means i could most prolly hav my last day of wrk on 31st march. After that i plan to buy my army stuff, make my specs, and visit a teacher. Then off to mindef chalet s one of my fren put in his msn nick haha. I think i'm gona hav a sensitive nose and more asthma attacks due to the tons of old documents i handle at wrk everyday. Btw, today my boss asked mi if i wanted to eat at the restaurant abv our office. Wa tat place dam ex sia sell western food nia. The ribeye steak ar...dam cheap, 49.90 nia. But then of course i say dun wan lar. Where gt hao yi si. Then he ask whether wan fries or anything. Nah, i rather go home. Die le, i haven even applied fer university entry yet, whether NUS NTU or SMU. SMU i think forgt it lar. The other two wait a while more fer mi pls. I feel recharged as friday arrives. Yes, a day off work. That's the best it gets, especially if its a friday and most likely the wkends i will nt b tied up wif wrk. Cool. Absolutely dude. Walau today my frens went marina bay fer steamboat and they invited mi surprisingly leh...dam it lar... all thx to wrk...zzz. I have to find a time to apply fer uni soon, real soon. I think mayb this wkend ba. Lemme try to end of wif a poem...aiya forgt it. Too lazy. Mayb another day. My arms r hurting dunnoe y. And my quickest typing whether tyco or nt i dun care is 59. Darn plus one n it wld b 60 liaoz. Nvm try again another time...

After this post i guess i will have a gd nite's rest. The race to complete scanning the tons of documents juz continues. My boss worked till 3 plus in the morning yesterday, wait make tat today. My colleague worked till 12 today. I left at 6 YESTERDAY. Whoops haha, eh pls lar small boy how can work so long hrs. Anyway today kena thanks-ed by my boss. Yesterday i returned his missed call and he asked mi to go meet him at 830 at srgn mrt. Then it was raining heavily today so he msged mi at 745 to tell mi to change plan and go office at the usual 9 instead. Wth...hai mi wake up half an hr earlier. Then went office and scanned one file of coloured drawings. Suddenly my boss asked mi if this wednesday free ma go fer dinner. Then i told him cannot make it and asked him fer a favour instead. Luckily he agreed. I'm OFF THIS FRIDAY!!! Super shuang man. Then ltr i learnt frm my colleague tat they all went to eat swensen's fer dinner ytd. The missed call frm my boss was actually to ask mi to join them. Sian diao. Wasted sia haha. Anyway i den dun wan lar. Rather go home and eat haha. Then after the file of documents we went airport again. Then collected the documents and went back to office. Wa now gt a whole lot of documents hav to scan again. In the evening our boss went out to supposedly hav lunch wif his gf. Then my colleague used the laptop to play word racer on yahoo games. Wa quite nice man. Gt a few dam pro lar. Thrash my score sia. After that i went home liaoz. Then asked my colleague to help mi ask boss to change my leave to friday s i asked him fer thursday initially. Heng, he agreed. Ok I tink i shall stop blabbering on. Gotta slp before 12 fer once. Nite one and all.

One last scholarship application left to go to be done by this friday. The more i send, the more i feel i'm juz wasting my time. My frens who juz applied hav alrdy been called up fer interviews yet i'm been waiting fer mths. Oh well, i guess im being an ass by nt taking s papers. Yes the pun IS intended. Wat r the use of such papers if one does nt gt the opportunity to take them? Stupid school and stupid mi. Its been a busy week. Juggling between work, frens, family and games has proved not to be an easy task. I just hope that this week will pass fast enuf. 21st March is the dateline that my boss declared to submit all done documents since the financial department of the airport is closing this mth. After which my superior said that it would be less stressed and busy, hopefully. I'm gunning to get a day off this thurs or fri to play soccer wif frens. Hopefully I can do that. Wow, i miss the sun, and soccer. Tml is gona b another long day. Delivery and taking. Let's hope i can hold out till this wed. However, i feel tat hopes r misleading. Well then, let's raise this topic another time. Gotta slp nw. Zzz.

It seems that the onli time fer mi to blog is at wrk using my boss's laptop. Phew at last a 5 mins rest. Sick. I am worth my pay man. zzz. Anyway my current aims are to complete an essay on the port of singapore and a final scholarship application. After that is all the work til 31st March. How i wish that day would come. When that day comes, i will noe if i had donated my stamps to the singapore post or hav they juz gave mi a chance to go fer interviews which could change my life fer the nxt few yrs to come. Alrite rite nw i can onli hope fer the best. I guess 5 mins up. The nxt update will b...i dunnoe.

1) Sometimes I think that u r a gd friend. But smtimes the things u do relly leaves mi in bewilderment.
2) Sometimes I think u know mi well. But it looks like that is far frm reality.
3) Sometimes I wonder how my existence impacted the people around mi. But I know I can b glad if i didnt make things worse.

Another bad thing abt mi is that i tend to readily agree to other pple's request, onli to panic to fulfill my agreements when the time arrives. I relly muz learn hw to reject pple w/o being scared. To get rejected is easy. How i wish it was juz like tat rejecting other pple's invitations. But its just that old frens call u out...n its relly bad if u cant make it. Look here. I've gt a fren wanted to dine wif mi at 730 at clarke quay. Then i promised my boss to work overtime tml. And I still hav to go sch to meet my teacher to collect my referee's report. Gd job man. I'm filled fer the day. Over-filled.

I stand alone on the dusty shore,
Looking afar for dreams galore.
Only saw menacing truths,
Those which threatened with soul-deep bruise.

After goin to the engineering talk in nus, I've stuck to my decision of applying fer chem eng. Here comes the bad news. This particular course onli has 200 plus vacancies per yr. One guy who is currently studying in the course says that the AT LEAST 90% of the students in his cohort which came in 2 yrs ago has straight As. WTF! Wait haven finish yet. My friend's bro applied fer the same course 2 yrs ago and he had the same results as mi. Guess wat he cldnt get into the course. Will i repeat his history? Haiz. Back to reality. I juz realised my ex-classmates did relly well fer the exams. The best fer onli 5 subjects is A1 and 4 As. Sick. Two accomplished tat feat. Another had A2. Oh well, i guess i'm juz average i hope, not below. Let's hope they dun apply scholarships. Or else chances r that i may become a major contributor of the recycling paper scheme from all the envelopes and certs i send to scholarship companies. My first choice of study has been jeopardised by the fact that my yr has many students wif beta or the same results s mi. My second choice? Whoops, no fallback plan dude. Evacuation procedure underway...

Does it mean that if u dun get a scholarship u r a loser? Hmm...tat qn will hav mi thought twice before answering... Oh well, i'm nt gona giv my life fer it or watever, juz gona...try...busy these few days, pardon my blank updates. Tml im going to nus open hse. Far journey. Think if i ever get into nus i've definitely gona stay in hostel. My boss said that hostel life is fun lar. Hmm...hope that i wld hav tat experience haha. Went to sch to c my teacher to ask her to write report fer mi. Then she said i gotta b serious when goin to interview muz "act". Oh well, i guess the usual way i talk is nt serious. But siao ar who wans to b serious EVERYTIME?!?! Tml i muz slp well n late. Its saturday cool. ok i'm off.

I think i hav decided to take chem eng. My struggle fer a scholarship starts tml. Hopefully it will end fruitfully.

Sometimes the truth hurts. It relly hurts. Sometimes the minor things u do or do not do could make a hell lot of difference to the lives of others. I learnt that today. Ouch it hurts.

Today was the big day. And yes im blogging. The worst ever result day i ever experienced in my entire life. I wasn't saved by the principal nor the slides. I onli had the choice of waiting anxiously. I got my results finally. Oh well disappointment fer my gp there. Had hoped fer at least a B3 but oh well. Considering my college's tradition of BEAUTIFUL gp results, i had nt much regrets. Many pple did well in this yr's A's, i mean last. 4As were a common sight and many whom i owned during the o lvls came back to take their revenge today. Ouch that was pain. Anyway i found out that among my sec sch friends i was one of the lousiest. Cool eh. With the results out, now what i hav to do is to find a course i like and hope to get a scholarship. With half the HCI pple gettin 4 distinctions and above, i guess my chances r s slim s mi. Oh well im juz have to try my luck. The next few days r gona b crucial. My course choice and applications fer scholarships have to b submitted. Haiz wif results come bad ones frm sm friends too. It is not gd to learn that smone u noe well has done badly. Even worse the person is devasted too. I hope those whom i noe n did nt do s gd s they expected can climb up and continue to perserve. Truly i believe, no one is useless. Oya i promised to lend 60 bucks to an excolleague. Hopefully she wun cheat mi. Tml no wrk goin out wif frens in the morning. I guessed i did the best i cld, the effort that is. To all frens out there, hav an early nite.

Tml's the big day. Cya n may the nxt time i blog, if i decide to, b a pleasant one. Good luck guys, and of course mi too.

Tml's gona b a fresh start. It's gona b the first day working without 2 of the people whom i hav worked wif fer a month. Changes do happen in life. U juz gotta get on wif it. Met up wif 2 friends after wrk at amk. Had a discussion then parted ways wif blessings. How i wish life was juz like tat, onli blessings and gatherings.