Had a rather busy week in terms of drill rehearsals. The unfortunate news of an OCS officer's death during AHM sent OCS into a mini-frenzy s we had to settle funeral stuff. Bt the funeral went on smoothly and we paid our last respects to a v valiant officer. His funeral reminded mi tat of my grandmother. I nearly teared during sm parts of the funeral s i tot abt my grandmother when she was alive. A v great example she set fer her relatives both young and old and her sudden departure left everyone of us saddened wif grief. Watever i promise u grandma, i will try my best to achieve it. 10th wk is over fer my service. The nxt bk in wld include meeting of the SISPEC crossovers and of course the most wonderful platoon field camp which will last 6 days. N i've found a date in the worst way possible fer my social nite. Whether i will enjoy tat relly remains to b seen. Seriously i guess i muz hav stepped on many gals' toes in my previous lives fer mi to hav so much entanglement wif them in my current one. Juz recently my date-to-be(DTB) scolded mi ungentlemanly, tactless/ful(which ever is the negative one), insincere and prolly sm other negative stuff. Cooool. I think i will end up on social nite bringing a date there n lasting the nite w/o one. What a successful socialite i will prove to b. Perhaps i fail in tat aspect of an officer cadet. Earlier in the day, one of my platoon mates commented (i dunnoe if he meant it or nt bt he prolly was) tat i had the best temper in the world. Oh well, i guess my ego gt the beta of mi when i felt tat my DTB kept putting mi down. Lastly she gave mi a final surprise when she told mi tat a few other clzmates of mine were watching our convo. Wow. Thanks. I guess I'm relly looking forward to social nite fer the wrong reasons nw. Was she relly the gal whom i did a science project wif? Oh ya she added i was hopeless. Yea perhaps. Hopeless enuf fer my standards n prolly others too. Hopeless, ungentlemanly, tactless and insincere. Thats mi. Hi.

Army half marathon. Came back 3 hrs ago. Ran 12km. Wa v lots of pple sia, esp army de. Saw qt a few of my frens. V heart-warming sia c them agn after so long. Even saw one of my seniors and he was dam shocked tat i was in ocs. Zzz. I so noob meh. A bit nia ma zzz. Wa seriously if i dun end up in arty after service term then siao liaoz. My fren's cousin told him tat my training nw is qt tough de or the toughest. Zzz. It beta b lar cause i cannot imagine hw much tougher it can b. 12 km v long sia. Ran fer 1 hr plus plus. Haiz my fren didnt make it fer PTI selection cause he didnt swim well. Wat a waste lar. If onli there was officer PTI, i confirm go fer the selection de lor zz. Ouch my left knee is hurting slightly nw after the run. Orh man relly relly hope i dun go out of course due to injury sia. Then when i changed to my civilian clothes after the run my platoon mates were like 'wow-ing'. zzz. One said it was matching ie my clothes n shoes. Lol n i hadnt put on my cap. Oh well. Went thru dressing-up lessons the hard way liaoz. N my fren in bmt ask mi whether goin kopitiam in tat or nt lol. Ok private joke. Nxt wk's platoon field camp liaoz. 6 days. Omg im gona complain n complain till its over. N when it is, heh song liaoz. Haiz bking in tonite liaoz. Sianz leh...

End of 9th wk. End of patrol field camp. Phew, i pulled thru, luckily. Training in rain outfield has almost become a formality fer mi. Wet uniforms mixed wif sweat, mud n rain is definitely nt gd fer sensitive skin s i hav found out the hard way. I hav also passed down my appointment s cadet platoon commander. Obviously i lived up to my instructors expectations tat i m an absolute failure. Nxt wk is platoon field camp liaoz. 6 days. Worst days of my life s wat a senior feedback to us in the canteen. Oh well. Tats juz relly cool fer mi. Hopefully there is an error smhw in the training schedule and it is supposed to b shorter instead. Ok i noe, wishful thinking. Bt tats wat kips mi goin on. Oya theres gona b a change of command in ocs wif the commander of ocs stepping down liaoz. Then theres this parade to pay our gratitude to him and guess wat im one of the lucky 66 of my wing. Zzz. Rehearsals in the hot sun nt onli burn ur boots bt ur brains s well nt to mention sunburnts. No wonder parades seldom consisted of females. Monday is the actual one wif last practices on tat morning. Yawnz. If i relly dun gt to arty during pro term i think i will juz die out in infantry. Oh well, lets hope my instructors noe where to put mi to. Heh. N no more nites at home. Zzz. Confined fer army half marathon. Organised punishment. Hw coincidental. Oh well. A matter of gettin used to. Feels great to b commissioning. I guess i juz hav to wait n endure fer 6 more mths plus plus if i wan to even gt a whiff of it. Wa...1.5hrs the actual parade wif 3 wks of practice. I hope i can make my bros n parents proud of mi. I relly hope so.

8th wk done. 6 more to go till the end of service term. Darn this wk is v unlucky. First on thursday n friday we had live firing n outfield training and it rained exactly bfore we started. How coincidental. Splash splash. Mud n water soaked our uniforms s thou they were juz washed in the washing machine of the rain topped up wif detergent consisting of sand mud and nt forgetting slices of nice smelling grass. Nice. Anyway, was amazed i got over it. Platoon training i was the exercise pc due to my cpc responsibility. More of default anyway. Was amazed at the way my pc guided mi thru the entire exercise patiently. This gave mi the shudders s he juz blasted mi the day bfore. Hopefully it doesnt mean tat he recommended mi fer infantry rather than my desired arty. omg. Last wk of my cpc duty. Phew. Another 2 more days n there will b a change of command. yes. 9th wk consists of patrol field camp where u slp onli fer half an hr? bet missions over 3 days. Rocks. No wonder cadets r paid more. 140 bucks burnt fer social nite event. N 3 xtras if im unable to turn up wif a date. Cool huh. After this wk is done, there is onli the platoon field camp left. 6 days. Cool...Bk in day agn. Getting used to it. Used to being let down agn n agn...

The end of field camp. The end of the 6th wk. Midway thru the 7th. Lucky fer this national day hol or else my knees gona become nth more than brittle bones. Orh man after the 7km run today bfore bkout it was painful dude. Period. Oh well, guess i gota spend a little cash to buy some protective knee gear. I guess very soon the things i wear and buy is gona out-worth mi. Wait or has it? Oya the 7th wk was the week i was appointed CPC. Cadet Platoon Commander. In layman's terms, Platoon IC. Orh man tat juz adds on to my stress. Physically and mentally. I hope tonite my knees will recover fast or else it wld b a challenge gettin to the nxt bk out wif both my legs carrying mi out of camp. The bad thing abt OCS is tat there aint any time at all fer u to recover frm injuries and stuff. A period of missing lessons and stuff and the nxt thing u noe it u r out of course. Hope i dun get out of course cause of injuries cause tat wld definitely b a pity. Anyway who cares, i'm even deemed a screwed up guy in my platoon. A screwed up officer less wld definitely serve the force well. Mayb i might nt make it to 22nd september, afterall...