I just realised, yea i juz did, tat no one understands me. Tats gd. N bad. Depending on who u r. If u r a criminal gd. If u r anybody else then forgt it. I doubt i will ever change. Too bad fer mi and all ard mi and all goin-to-be-ard-mi pple.

Am i tat gd in reading other pple's behaviour? N y do i always form perceptions of them based on tat? Wait tats normal rite. Forming perceptions of a person's character frm the way he/she behaves. No, actually not. Not whn u think u r perfect in doin so. I relly hope im nt perfect. In fact i hope i was lousy. How i wish i was dumber. How i wish i cldnt, and thus, wldnt, think so much.

Much s it is possible to quit smoking or drugs, the above second nature of myself seems alrdy a part of mi. Unseparable, conjoined, intertwined as one.

I need a time-out. A time-out from myself.

Phew. Survived another day in camp. Was kinda busy but...manageable, at times. N i juz realised i lost one of my reports. Uh huh, im starting to screw things up aft taking over frm my u/s....lol. Tried to clear up all the mess bfore i left camp s tml i wldnt b in camp bt in east coast park. Cleared up most, of course, table manners say u shldnt wipe ur bowl of soup sparkling clean, so i had to leave some behind.

Just as i was about to leave camp the hottie, i mean horti gal (horticulturist gal) came into the office to giv mi sm documents. Looks like she's having an internal transfer in her company frm nxt mon. Aww....means tat i cant c her anymore boohoo. N surprising she's my age too. Then bfore she left my other female colleague 1 yr older said smth like its my last day to noe the horti gal liaoz. Walao. Then whn i wanted to leave camp it rained donkeys and monkeys zzz. I wanted to take a ride frm colleague but...he pangsei mi zzz. In the end my shoes n part of my jeans were wet by the time i reached the busstop. I cld feel the squishing sound of the drenched socks whnever i stepped down on my feet zzz.

Was a little late fer tuition. Holy cows. Whn i reached there, bfore i cld say "Hi Auntie", she picked up a cane n whacked twice on both my tutees each. Holy cows, or canes. Then i dun dare say anything else and went to start tuition. Upon reaching the room, the p5 guy started crying. N started cursing his mum abt being unfair and abusing him etc. Oh well, juz like who i was in the past. Consoled him and managed to get thru the tuition rather smoothly. Smoked him all the way. Nah, jk lar lol.

Ya tml east coast park fer mi. But its nt clz outing. Trying to c if my ankle will still b attached to my leg after 15km a nt. After tat take mc. Then rest of the day off. Lalala. Tml nite mayb stayingover, but wait cannot hav to brush teeth. So onli nite activities till pretty late then. Or pretty early lol.

Went to wrk in the morn. Run cancelled due to dark clouds. Saved my ankle fer another day. Left aft lunch fer course. The course onli 3 pple -.- N i dun hav account to try out smmore cause nvr create. -.- Then aft course still go back camp. Dunnoe wat was i tinking. My onli reward was my chief clerk treating us to durians. Again haha. I ate a few. Omg the whole office stunk like there was a dead corpse in there sia. In the end we had to open the windows. Then went home.

In the bus ride home slept quite soundly. Too soundly. In the end i tink i knocked against the lady beside mi ard 5,6 times? Upon the sixth time then she gave mi a dagger-stare. N i was dam paiseh so i said sorry. Luckily my stop was near if nt i wld hav knocked against her smmore liaoz lol. Argh...my stomach hurts now....ouch....

Oo. I tink i shldnt giv advice to pple in matters which i myself suck at. Im so sry if i was the cause of any mishap. But i hav a feeling all is not lost yet. All the best my fren.

Lol, my pri 2 tutee kip like to sa jiao wif mi whnever she wans her way. Tsktsk. At least she's getting more matured. I was a little mad at her fer nt doin her wrk and even worse kip gettin distracted by little stuff. The onli gd thing i can derive frm tat is i get paid fer doin nth, which if u look at it in another perspective is also bad. But i guess it prolly is the stress in camp which i face as well. Even during tuition i got a call frm my sgt. Nice. What i like abt her n her bro is that watever comments they make or say are perfectly innocently honest. Kids. Little angels (/devils) descending upon us from heaven. Ahh....

As my u/s ORD date gets closer, the more stuff i hav to close fer him and open fer myself. Onli spiritually (which i doubt so too) present in office, it is definitely a challenge to uphold the reputation he has built up fer the current post im holding. Tml wanted to take off fer the morn then go fer my course in the noon bt forgt to ask my dy head abt it. So im gonna b a gd boi n go frm wrk aft lunch tml. Darn tat means liferun tml. Darn tat means another chance to b a handicap again. Tink my dy head is starting to dislike mi. Oh well. Im gettin used to it anyway.

Personally devoured around 2 whole durians. Im nt relly a big fan of durians but once in a while, i cant relly stop whn i start, which is kinda bad. I often end up overstuffing myself like a pig and felt relly awful wif all the murky stuff churning in my stomach. Today was slightly beta. Haha. The onli thing i dun like is tat the smell of durian will stay on ur hands and ur breath will still stink the day after. Eww. Dun relly like tat kinda durian liaoz.

Thx bro fer organising the clz outing. (Although i also help a bit to giv ideas eh heh) But its kinda boring if like less than half of the clz turn out. Haiz. Ok i shall restrain my impeccable-trouble-courting mouth (or hands) frm saying (or typing) smth sacarstic. *slaps myself* Going to slp now. 2 days down. Im 2 yrs down. Not NS. Its my other liability, my life.

Talk about monday blues. The morning run of 5km was a little torturing. I ran wif my ex-coursemates. They were rather fast, either that or i hadnt been running much, which i tink is a more truthful explanation. Luckily one of them cldnt catch up so i ran wif him to encourage him. After tat ran an extra rd rd the track. First time i saw my head in liferun lol. Argh! N my ankle! Seriously, i dunnoe wats wrong wif my left ankle since the last time i played soccer wif my old court shoes. Everytime it lands in tat inner position when you try to bend ur knee inwards, it hurts. A little aggravation towards tat position n it hurts. It hurts n it hurts n it hurts. U noe hw much i hate injuries. I tink i wld die living wif multiple long term injuries. Cant do this and that. Zzz. Horrible. Like totally (wif an aussie slang). hahah.

Next up, breakfast. I bought my usual mee cum egg cum hash brown cum, i mean combo, n a refreshing cup of ribena. Walking to my seat, my left hand holding the paper plate of my mee felt a little crack of the plate, then even before my super duper uber lightning quick reflexes could react at all, the mee met the floor quicker than the plate cld. Obviously the floor was starving.

I shrugged to myself, accepted my thanks frm the floor, then asked the uncle embarrassingly fer a broom n dustpan to clean up the leftovers. Then the uncle asked mi to take another plate. But of cos i rejected his offer cause it wasnt his fault tat the floor was hungry anyway. 5 mins ltr sipping my ribena and my fren eating his plate of mee, the uncle brought another plate to mi wif egg and hash brown. Argh. Y shld he pay fer feeding the floor. It shld hav been mi doin the honour. I tried to pay him but he swept it away wif such certainty tat i retracted my note realising tat i din wan to create a scene fer his gesture of goodwill in front of his store. Thanks uncle.

The rest of the day went wif a few more bumps here and there but nth new. Oya my sec clzmate who juz enlisted jio us go play bball tis sat. Ooo...haha i tink he muz b dam sian diao now. Im tired lar. Ytd slept after midnite. My fatty bro is sick. Lol. Tat asshole. Having fever. Ahh...prolly burning his fats away hahahaha. Get well soon! =)

Wa my tutee's nt relly gd at fractions.

Watched dark knight. Was nice but draggy. Discussed abt the movie aft it. Tats abt it. Soon it will be another new and long week.

I never meant to hurt anyone frm the day I knew wat hurt was. Those who know mi knows. To all I did, I sincerely apologise. No hard feelings. Curse and swear at me if you have to. Or perhaps find a chance to know me better. The choice is yours.

Swam. Din relly hav the drive to swim tat long. Motivated myself by following one rather bulky adult to and fro. After he stopped, or wat i suspect so if he din change his goggles, or weight, I swam another 2 lengths juz fer pleasure. It was then whn i truly felt poetry in motion in swimming. Well, robotic i wld admit, bt...lets juz say i din feel a bit tired during tat period. Reason i stopped was cause my ears were thirsty and were attempting to take a sip or two frm the pool.

Slacked the whole afternoon away. Then din go out afterall. Half-expected it anyways. Heh. In the end felt like an idiot changing frm going out clothes to home clothes. Eh wat. Wipe tat shock expressions of ur faces. Ya. My home clothes not = going out clothes alrdy. Upgrade liaoz zzz.

Tml morn gt tuition. Mayb joining frens at noon. All the way till nite. Dun go home so late hor. Monday hav to bk in one. Sianz. Run again. Die le lar ahm. 21km. Zzz. N im going fer this manpower course wif my 1st 3 mths buddy whn i was on course. Lol. Tat idiot. Wld b nice to c an old pal.

Oya juz realised smth. The 2 yrs in army almost reflects the path of life everyone takes. First u go undergo basic military training aka schooling and education. Then u go on course aka university. After u pass out aka graduate, you go to units to ply ur trade aka go out into the society and find a job. Then u understudy someone aka learning frm seniors to know more abt ur job scope n hw to do it well. After tat ur upperstudy ORDs aka u become independent and start to excel in wat u do (or try to). Also, you begin to start a family and ur career is on track. Then ur understudy comes aka ur children grows up and are old enuf to support you and you are on ur way to enjoying old age. Lastly, you ORD and c hw ur understudy has blossomed under ur guidance aka ur children start to hav their families and careers and u r one step away frm eternal peace. Ahhh... a birth of a new flame replacing the extinguished diminishing one. Welcome to the circle of life.

Changed my shoe at queensway once again. Had to pay another 10 bucks cause i wore it alrdy. I no choice so pay lor since i wldnt wear the shoes if they werent changed cause they were simply too small fer mi.

My u/s has had his last day ytd alrdy. He says tat he coming back on mon to settle some stuff regarding my taking over frm him. Looks like its all on my own now. Now new funds have arrived. Stupid retarded superior now then put in. Kinda dumb to go thru all the trouble huh. Now i hav to modify my manual tracking again zzz. My u/s did a nice job teaching mi all he cld. I sincerely thank him fer tat n wish him all the best nxt time. Again. Ha. One more thing dam embarrassing. I wanted to find smone in camp then i accidentally called one of my frens due to same identity. Then i din realise until i put down the phone. Walau dam malu sia. -.-

Tonite goin to eat dinner outside. Actually wanted to watch movie bt nt free. Oh well. No more hellboy liaoz. Tml batman n dinner out. Cldnt make it fer ball cause gt tuition. Paiseh lar. Their CA one mth's time liaoz. Which means I might hav to teach fer onli a month more hahah. Eh bt hopefully not lar cause i dun tink i tat lousy lor zzz. Now, mayb swimming fer mi.

Walao. Stupid shoes lar. I've forsaken them alrdy. I giv up. Let's juz take it i gambled my money away onli to lose it horribly. Stupid retarded mi sia. I suck at this kinda stuff. Dunno y but its true.

Today asked fer half day off frm dy head. Onli left office at 230 due to obvious reasons. Tired of wrk. I ORD mood liaoz even thou my u/s haven even left lol. I dun care. Its nt tat im lazy or wat. Its sm idiots which cld have expedited my finance transactions instead have deteriorated their progress. If the whole army was made up of NSFs it cld prolly survive. If onli regulars no way. Lets juz hope its the few black sheep huh.

Tml hafta chair meeting. Before tat meet dy head on retarded finance issues which i have no idea y im repeating myself like a broken kbox tv. Wat a disappointment. Sunday was such a climax. Now such stuff happen. Good things dun relly last after all. In my life tat is.

First, lets talk about bad stuff first. My stupid shoe which i bought was too small fer mi -.- ARGH!!! Ok rewind. Sunday morn i happily embarked on once-per-mth soccer trip wif my frens at woodlands. When i first wore my shoes i was like "wa a bit tight sia", bt tot nth of it n started playin. After mayb 15 mins i felt blisters forming at the back of my feet. "Ok mayb juz my socks which were too low" i tot n continued. Another 15 mins n i cldnt take it alrdy. Even the outside of my last toe of my left foot was receiving the wrath of the new shoe. Fast forward. >>>>>Eh wait <<<<<>>>> Changed shoe then today tried to wear to camp. Wa cannot. Super tight still. Zzz. Nice shoes bt i cant wear T.T

Today at wrk the same crap u hear s usual. Blah blah blah. Pple nt doin wrk, i clearing up. Gettin more wrk. Did duty today. Tried to scram via the back gate aft duty bt was 5 mins late so had to go by the front gate which means no direct bus n more time wasted. Then the stupid bus almost missed my hand when i flagged fer it. Prolly cause the bus driver pitied mi fer wat i've been thru in the day then he stopped 10m after the busstop. Ok no interest to blog abt stupid stuff like wrk so lets go on the nice stuff!!!

Yesterday i realised i spent less than 2hrs at home frm the time i wake up...till i close my eyes....she's everywhr i go....psps become lyrics liaoz hahahahaha. Ok ya so onli 2 hrs at home fer sunday cool huh. After soccer n trip to queensway n toa payoh to buy book fer tutee (im a nice n caring tutor huh), i ploughed home at ard 430 in the afternoon. Asked my mum to prepare my dinner, ate at 5, finished up and packed my stuff n i went to play volleyball!!!! According to latest news there were onli 5 pple goin so if i went i cld make up the 6th so i went. Went city hall then made our way to smu by foot. Then i reached at 705 whn i n two frens arranged to meet at 7. Then my senior who is goin to smu exclaimed y i come so late. Then i asked y then he said cause gals training until 7 onli. Lol. Then on our way there by foot he said mayb they still bathing hhahahaha. We reached ard 710-715. Saw my seniors there 4 of them. Then i was wearing a jacket cause i was afraid of the cold in the train. Then one of them said wa play vball muz wear jacket ah. Then i say cause liddat then like those in the beach.ball.babes show ma lol. Walked past gymnasts practising into the hall. Wa...it was v long since i saw gals, i mean vball court indoors all set up. Well, there were gals bt they were packing up n leaving. Apparently one of them knew my senior so she pestered him to organise sm bbq thing lol. I was afraid tat my court shoe wld become pieces at first bt further trial n test made mi found out tat my court shoes prolly cld withstand one more session haha. Wa dam long nvr play. The first few i hit wif my hands made my hands looked like iodine cum starch mixture zzz. N it was super pain seriously. After tat it was alrite liaoz. Then spiking practise. Wa i din noe i gt improve frm last time lor. I onli knew i last time dam lousy considering my height. Now...its different heh. Anyway we played frenly match wif the smu team. The smu team was....at best mediocre. Our modified-cum-on-the-spot-formed team cld win the first set against them easily. I was the lousiest of them all lar -.- but it was fun. Then we were tied at 2 sets all. Then v late le so we played one last set. Fer the last set our senior who joined the smu team earlier came to join us n we played a 15-point set. Wa thruout the entire match i cld feel our sch spirit still burning inside us. The feeling tat there will always b smone to protect u, to help u in times whn u cnt cope wif the pressure etc. Tat was the team spirit i always liked since young. Ok nw i tell u MY highlights. haha. I rmbr one ball i dived to save wif one hand, then i rolled over n came back up on my feet. Wa i tink tat move dam cool. Shld hav recorded wif cam sia dam! Ok then 2 balls i spiked dam hard n nice. Siam the blockers hands n won the points. Even my seniors were a bit shocked lar lol. Now fer my bloopers. Walau whn my fren say i officer then my seniors were a bit disbelieving lor zzz. K lar hard to believe bt gimme a bit of credit can zzz. Fine nvm. Then i made a few blummers like nt saving the ball whn it landed ard my territory etc. Eh i in the team longest nvr play can. Cant help lor. Then one i cnfm rmbr. My fren helped mi set-up the ball fer a spike. But it was too far to my left n i was alrdy to the rite of the ball. Then i tried my best to reach fer the ball while saying "W....a....l....a....o..." thruout the entire projectile of the ball, n failed. Then my teammates were all rolling n laughing at mi lor. Zzz. Luckily smu nvr reacted haha. Ok lar actually a bit retarded lar. Tats y funny hahahaha. Wa then in the end hav to go liaoz cause 10 plus le. Today hav to wake up early. Haiz it was dam fun. I missed my teammates. I tink it was also fun cause of one of the senior who is super joker. Relly. He was making dam funny comments everytime. I still rmbr gt one point we rallied rather long. Then whn we lost we were quite sian diao. Then he panted, "wa im so glad the point is over". hahahah k lar it was dam funny at the point of time. The nite at smu was dam fun. Now its time to play beach vball hahahaha.

Its nice to be appreciated fer good deeds u hav done. It makes one more encouraged to do the same in the future. Unfortunately in reality its seldom the case. After last nite i realised it was relly nice to hav someone backing u all the way in watever u do. Although it was onli in the volleyball court tat i felt tat way ytd nite, i felt much more protected than whn i stepped out even thou i was playing wif pple whom i speak to less than the number of candles on my bdae cake. Its nice to hav someone supporting u, consoling u, lifting u up in times of need. N fer other occasions bask in happy times. Evidently its tough to find tat someone huh.

Honesty is the best policy no doubt. But unfortunately tat best is pretty much subjective. I guess its juz best to be who u r. Wearing a mask fer too long can actually spoil ur pretty face. You wldnt wan tat wld u?

Forced myself to remain in my bed till 10. Went breakfast then used the com. Found out tat my com relly sucked to the core. Although its nt dual or quad core but the statement still stands. Now cannot even play games. Nice. Im amazed i cld even get to the windows page ha. Asked my dad to buy a new graphics card which i highly suspect the current one is severely decapitating my com.

After lunch made my way to queensway myself. Met a fren on the bus then missed my stop to change bus zzz. In the end had to walk 10 mins to go back to the previous busstop. Took the bus then decided to take a quick nap. Woke up ard thrice. Watever it is im juz thankful tat the last time i woke up the bus was abt to stop at the bus stop opposite queenway shopping centre. I still rmbr earlier in the wk whn i was on my way to NDC smone had to nudge mi to wake mi up whn i reached amk interchange lol.

Wow quite a lot of pple at queenway. N quite a lot of shops. My hunt fer the shoe which wld unite them(the sports which i wan to play wif it) all began wif my frens. My fren bought a jersey and another bought slippers (again) after ard 2 hours plus. I bought nothing zzz. I found the type of shoe i wanted but there was no size zzz. N it was like dam rare lar. Prolly now the brand umbro is extinct n no court shoes are low cutting enuf at the toes portion for you to play soccer. Argh. I even bought my old shoes to compare against my current limited options but sadly onli the ones wif nth of my size fitted. Ate macs to take a break. Got the stupid olympic cup then discussing slightly abt tuition experiences and whether macs is making higher or lower profits currently. I for one decided to exclude frm debates involving the former and drink my coke happily wif a straw. Ate alrdy then nearly 6. All of them had other apptmts so left on their separate ways leaving mi to hunt fer my shoe, again. After an inner-self-debate-cum-practical reasoning, I decided tat since i was goin to play soccer the most s compared to vball n table tennis, buying a pair of soccer shoes wld b the best bet. Vball or tt if nxt time i relly wan to play more often then i shall get another pair then. Anyway i suspect tat the reason y my INdoor court shoes spoilt so easily was prolly using it OUTdoors. I will giv it a proper burial fer serving mi so faithfully over the few years lol. Heh. Lame. -.-

Speaking of which, latest update is tat i might nt go play vball cause they hav enuf pple liaoz. I dun wan go there pick balls -.- Tml's soccer i will try out my shoes. Better dun spoil so fast or i will go find the shop owner fer revenge. Smhw, if i were to engage in all activities tml, i hav a bad feeling i might not b able to make it back home w/o limping. Last wk i limped home w/o vball fyi. O well, my premonitions dun always come true anyway. Or does it? It beta nt. Well, it beta.

Today saw my u/s fer the first time in such a long time. Ok lar 3 days aint long but if u r in the army 3 days can seem like 33 days. Tat bugger zzz. ORD mood liaoz then so slack lol. He's been a great teacher to mi teaching mi all he cld in the past few mths i've been wif him. Although he will never read this, I wld like to giv a word of thanks to him. N wish him all the best in his future endeavours. So cliche huh. Eh but im serious lar zzz. Anyway today he took half day to go get his bank loan fer uni. I tink any company which has him will benefit lor. He has the patience, the calmness and most of the time rationalism to deal with anything which comes his way. Hey wait, y m i talking abt him like he's my dream gal zzz. Ok back to mi. Im more impt k. Did more amendments to the finance thing till the end of the day but i dunnoe if it will b settled yet. More pple hounding fer long overdue payments which i of course, cldnt hand over. Oya n i talked to this lady on the phone over business stuff then she seemed super enthu. Lol. We were talking abt our laundry contract ending then i asked her if we were goin to wash our own laundry if tat happens. Then she giggled haughtily. Haha tat cld hav easily ended up into a private chat but of cos i HAD the time to do so.

After wrk went yishun to look fer my multi purpose court shoe. One, i muz b able to use it to play volleyball indoor. Two, play soccer on hardcourt. And lastly, table tennis indoors. Hmm. My current shoe cld do it but yishun disappointed mi horribly -.- I went to 4 sports shops then either there was no stock or the cutting and design din suit my activities. Im starting to wonder if the current pair of shoe was a present frm santa in secondary sch fer being such a cute boy XD Wa......dam sad sia. My shoe spoilt till BER(beyond economical repair) liaoz. It was dam nice to wear lar.....Argh.... Hopefully tml queensway will not b a wasted trip. N the shoe better not b so ex.

Actually theres one of my jc's band performing duno at whr tonite. My frens say the gal's hot. Izzit sarah yap agn? Lame i dun even noe who is tat lar. Wat i miss out sia. Muz b nt outstanding enuf lar zzz. But i tink her voice quite nice whn she sings. Im falling........aslp.

Watched ball. beach. babes. (nt relly sure the order) Wa i tink the actors n actresses sm of them relly went to learn vball. Quite cool. The galfren of the male lead super clingy lor....dam cool sia the male lead. As in the way he say break up etc lol. N the stupid galfren still go threaten another gal who juz likes the male lead bt din even make a move. Idiot sia. Ahh....dreams. I dream. Taufik Batisah's winning song at Singapore Idol. I like tat song. Eh btw tat cinderella quite cute lor haha not like the one in the fairy tale. Or izzit the illustrator too lousy. Hahaha.

Tml goin queensway in the noon. Sunday dam fun. Morning soccer till lunch. Aft lunch go home rest. Then evening go smu play vball!!!! YES!!! My mum quite angry lor then nagged at mi abt my knee etc. Haiz, i mean zai. I also dunnoe lar. I relly wana play bt im also afraid my ankle or knee cant take it. I dun wan it ltr injured then more cham zzz. Knee guard i got. Ankle dun hav. Not s if it helps bt psychologically it does lor. Hope at the end of sunday i still can walk, normally. Zzz. Zzz. Zzz. But i love wkends XD

Its kinda retarded if u wana present other pple's wrk s ur own. Firstly, its unethical and secondly u wun b able to truly noe the true meaning behind the wrk. The first im used to it but the second im especially tensed up abt it. Helping my dy head amend the finance reports time and again and time and again and time and again (yes tats ard the number of times or highly possibly even more, and yet more to come) is making mi sick to the core. Fine he may noe wat the higher authorities wan but even simple stuff such as adding a title like "Monthly breakdown of financial year Jul - Sep 08"even has to be done by mi. He admits tat his computer skills r zero but c'mon. Surely a sentence s the above wldnt b beyond ur ability??? Amend after amend after amend till i left office to go c the dentist. N he still wasnt satisfied. Or he tinks his superior wldnt b. So tml at 8 in the morn in his office i wld hav to go. How cosy. My apptmt wif the dentist was at 230. I left camp at 230. And it takes an hr juz to reach there. The numerous endless amendments coupled wif troublesome reservists were the main reasons y i "voluntarily" stayed back. I tink if it continues like this i may start to giv sacarstic remarks alrdy to the person involved lol. Once again i survived another day of pple hounding fer my blood. Either to get repairs done or to get their payments fer jobs done. Not s if i m the emperor. Go find smone else fer ur dragon blood zzz. Oya n i gt scolded by the reservist SO, i mean CO (the highest ranking guy) fer unbuttoning my shirt before i reached my bunk when i was on the flight of stairs up. Blah blah blah, rants of hw i shld b showing an example to others etc. I stopped my itchy mouth frm an impending argument and scurried away s i was alrdy late fer my dental apptmt. Left the disastrous place called camp n went fer my dental apptmt.

5 mins was all it took wif the dentist. 50 mins i took to get tat far. N another 15 mins to rd it all off. Rushed off fer my tuition aft tat. Reached 5 mins late. I've been on a roll. I've reached late fer my previous 3 apptmts wif them. Whoops haha.

My pri 2 tutee's relly gettin out of hand. Whn she relly doesnt wan to wrk she wun wrk. N i gave her a gd dressing-down (dun tink otherwise) whn she put her head on the table to ignore mi. Finally (and luckily), she began doin some of her wrk. A vast improvement s compared to a min ago. Prolly i tink either im gonna quit or get fired. Definitely the mother doesnt wan a tutor fer her son n another fer her daughter. N i realised taking care of a newborn is relly tough. The mother gave birth to one (2 mths back?) and i saw her feeding him milk. After feeding fer 1 min or less then he started puking it out. Then she has to repeat the same procedure all over agn. Omg it sure is tough huh. N her husband's onli back on wkends due to overseas commitment. She's one tough lady. Of course she has a maid to help her wif. But she has 4 kids too. Just like my family. I mean my mum.

Tml's friday. TGIF. I rmbred there was once this restaurant at douby gaunt whr the glasshse fish n co is now. It also sold steak etc. Wonder if anyone has any idea. Hav to buy my shoe either tml or sat. But i tink sat liaoz. I wan cheap n durable shoes leh. In my dreams rite i noe. Im dreaming.

Woke up to the sound of thunder and overcast skies this morn. Yay means no life run so no nid fer mi to go c the medical officer n get an excuse frm running due to my idiotically weak ankle. My ankle's healing fine. Not the wolverine-speed which i hoped fer but at least its still rather kind to mi. Except whn i step on uneven ground which causes my ankle to bend in a specific manner which will cause mi pain, normal walking seems alrite. Now fer my rite leg...my rite knee hurts a little...n my rite toes seem a little stiff, two of them to b exact. Long story cut short, i still dun feel rite wif my left n rite knee.

Went to wrk today then realised gt sm stupid building inspection stuff. Took the whole day n it was walking frm building to building, up n down, inside out. Very tired. Tat speaks volumes abt my level fitness hmm. Came back to office at ard 5 then had to do more wrk fer my dy head. Apparently he is a greenhorn in handling finance issues in camp and i n my u/s have always been running the show fer him. Tml's he's seeing his head abt funds being stuck etc. Tats y i had to do ot today zzz. Hopefully the stupid funds are transferred over cause its kinda dumb if u onli giv bit by bit then wait fer the nxt quarter of the yr before u request more fer ad-hoc wrks. Wrong. Make tat retarded. My u/s ps mi sia. Today n tml mc. Fri half day. Song liaoz lor. Fri wanted to take off one to buy shoes bt cannnot cause afternoon gt sm meeting to attend on behalf on my head. Walau. Wrk wrk n more wrk. N more pple r breathing down my neck to get their building facilities such as storeroom doors repaired but the fact is the funds r stuck n theres nth i can do either. Theres onli 1 black bar on my shoulder dudes. Oh well.

Tml gonna b another day of inspection. But i dun care afternoon goin fer my last dental surgery follow-up. If everything's alrite i prolly can start blowing my nose n drinking frm a straw after abt slightly more than a month of absence. Im a good boy leh heh.

Oya think i prolly hafta buy a pair of court shoes if i wan to play soccer this sunday. Prolly goin to queensway first then yishun haha.

Misunderstandings occur whn parties involved do not know each other well. Tat is our case i guess. And it always will b.

My day started pretty bad. Right whn the clock struck twelve. Or smtime bfore tat. Anyway i'll come to tat ltr.

Today at wrk i was the rubbish collector collecting every single piece of unwanted task into my ever expanding bin. Oh well. My u/s juz officially became my u/s. (Upper => Under) Zai. Now i'm officially dead. N he's gonna take nxt nxt wk overseas leave. Means theoratically, i'll onli c him till nxt wk. N did i mention he has ard....7 more offs to clear? Tat makes it even beta huh.

The treat at swensens was...ok to say at best. Ordered lamb chop. N its nt cause im a fan of the local movie comedy I Not Stupid. The meat was minimal, the soup of day bland, and the ice cream lacked the tinge of alcohol which i expected it to hav. During the meal we were discussing abt the various characters in our courses when we were still trainees, both mine and my u/s's. Haha had quite a few common insights there. And onli if i cld like do 2 degrees. One on chem eng and another on business banking n finance. Yea theres this double degree program i heard but hwever, one, business doesnt specialise tat far into banking n finance (i tink) and two, i aint gd enuf to qualify fer tat. Pop! goes my hopes lo.

My pri 2 tutee's gettin more n more daring. Nice. The onli thing i like abt her is tat she's still young n innocent and the funny questions she asks at times relly make mi smile to myself. Im nt a paedophile btw so dun get it wrong. She's relly ignorant of watever u say whn she doesnt want to hear but on the other if she has the passion n fire she will do her best in wat she does. Kids i guess huh.

Imagine tat u r chatting online wif smone. Ok regardless of who it is, after a few exchanges, the other party says something like "anyway its none of your concern". I dunnoe hw wld u feel but i certainly felt a tinge of disgust. Alrite mayb it depends on the context n the content. Something like whn someone asks u fer help then u listen intensely hoping u cld make a difference whn suddenly he/she says actually its juz a dream. Seriously i've nvr felt this feeling bfore until like...now? Actually i tink the fault lies wif mi. I tink im juz a big idiot trying to tink i can help every single soul in the world whom i come across whn in the end im doin myself a big disfavour, either feeling im useless tat i cldnt help or feeling guilty whn things dun turn out the way pple wan it to. Its true huh. Being too nice to everyone simply means being unkind to urself. How cool. Oh well dun mind my blabbering n rambling. Tis blog aint relly to advertise abt the good of the world n its inhabitants.

You made a right decision tat nite. Im glad i din dispute it. Sm things juz seem too incredulous for my puny brain to absorb. I admit you were insecure. You were insecure, simply because, u din noe mi at all. Tats y.

Limp. Limp. Limp. And limping. Still. Felt like a silly old man who lost his walking stick or smth. Zzz. My ankle's pain on the left. On the right the whole foot seems lazy to bear the extra burden due to its weakened partner-in-crime and seems to b moaning thru the many nerves connecting it to my brain. Another night of rest and hopefully it will recover more, or even better fully.

Had duty today so reached home ard 9. Watched the new vball show accidentally whn switching chnls on the tv while i ate my dinner. Haiya missed the very first part lar. Im nt sure wat it showed but im pretty sure it showed a vball match or part thereof. Dam the entire show onli had like 2 scenes involving vball matches. The rest juz mainly concentrated on building up the plot and introducing futuristic relationships. Ahh...juz s i expected. A letdown show which features more of the babes than the ball.

My fren juz approached mi to help him source fer potential clients looking fer investment or savings plans. Oh well so sry dude i cant help u tat much. Either all the gals hate mi or the guys detest mi. Actually its both heh. So tat spells alot of my social contacts.

Tml treat at swensens fer lunch yay. Zai nid to bring clothes to wrk to change. Tml also hav to reach camp dam early cause gt duty. But at least theres half a day off wrk!! XD

Holy macaronies! Serious. I had a relly relly relly relly relly (x as many as you can count) bad dream. I dreamt tat my mum (touch lotsa wood) passed (touched my head too juz in case) on. It was hell serious. I felt so empty inside mi like someone took my soul away onli leaving my corpse which could onli walk n talk devoid of feelings. It was a total nightmare. This relly proves hw much my mum means to mi despite some of the silly things she do to mi now and then. Im sure there are many more buggers out there in the world like my mum whom i cant live w/o fer sure. Nah u are not one so dun feel so gd. Heh. Joking lar. You are prolly one if u r reading this. Or smwhr there. Or smwat there. Watever. I hate tat dream. Tats the worst dream of my life. I woke up feeling super duper relieved. Holy smokes.

Woke up still thankfully breathing reality then went to eat breakfast before i went fer soccer at woodlands. Played fer ard 2 hrs etc wif frens n other strangers s well. Whoa, i tink im improving at soccer. At least now i try to tink of more than one way to play wif the ball whn i get it(if i get it). Kinda fun there. The sun's relly hot s usual. One of my fren din come cause he had rashes frm the clubbing last nite. Hmm 2 of them went double xo and drank then one of them came after 3 hrs of slp. The other had rashes prolly frm the alcohol. Well it beta be. The drinks' rather cheap at tat place. Feel like juz goin there to try out the atmosphere of wat it relly is to go clubbing. Actually clubbing = goin to clubs. Means i go clubbing bfore, onli nt at nite hahaha. Wait, i tink is half clubbing cause i juz went the outside w/o stepping in lol. Ouch i tink i hurt my ankle lar. Zzz. Dam pain now. I walk wif a limp now. Wa now im relly lame huh. Cldnt join my frens fer lunch cause had tuition so rushed back home to bathe n wash up. Met my other frens who juz ended their bball session haha so qiao. After tat went bathe then gobbled lunch then zao le. Wa had to limp all the way there. Sian diao. Die le lar i hate being partially paralysed. Argh!!! Nxt wk soccer i hope i can make it. Mayb my ankle's hurt due to the shoes i wear. I tink i can fight wif stephen chow in shaolin soccer fer the most rundown shoe liaoz.

Oya, one more thing! Chk out today's sunday plus. LOL my fans!!! Wearing shorts n slippers to orchard road!!! Cool huh haha. Aiya anyway i dress up beta than tat liaoz le lar. Some say its the company which decides their dressing. I tink fer mi its the company + the venue + my mood. Heh. N i nid to buy more berms to prepare fer uni. No way im goin there in long pants everyday. Im gonna set the fashion trend fer my fac man!!! Hhaahaha.

Today beta slp early. Quite tired almost whole day out sia. Tml still gt wrk. I tot suppose to hav youth day lor zzz. I onli 20 leh zzz. Youths onli stop at 18 meh. Still eatin my dinner aft one hour. Yea was busy eatin wang wang bfore dinner so ya. Tml's another wk. Zai. Nvm im gona shorten it wif offs XD

Yay, juz nw went jogging. 12 rounds rd the track slowly but surely. Eh i dun wan to die so early chiong so fast fer wat sia. No money also zzz. Went out buy bubble tea n snacks. Walau tot can dun use straw to drink bubble tea but in the end left like a few mouths n all the pearls zzz. Hopefully aft this thurs wif my dream date wif the dentist he will allow mi to drink using a straw agn. Tml's sunday. Soccer tml YES! but at 9 at woodlands. dam far sia zzz. means i hav to wake up at 730 zz. oh well. my fingers still hurt frm bowling ytd. Eh i tink i noe hw to bowl liaoz. Straighten hand till contact between ball n floor then can bend liaoz. Zzz. Prolly another 42 frames juz to try it out, and MAYBE succeeding. Juz nw after jogging tried to do one pull up. Then cant even do cause my chest dam suan. Wa dunnoe wat happened man. Mayb going thru puberty part 2. Zzz. Prolly cause of ytd's exercise in camp.

I beta slp early tonite. Ok not very early now but it shall do. Time fer my fitness sleep liaoz....

Yoyoyo! Yalar im nt at sentosa today cause no one interested to go tat far zzz. Anyway i guess the event's prolly nt very entertaining unless u relly wana go c the actresses and get their autographs n wat hav u. I think the show is juz another rip-off of the previous show The Champion which features swimming instead of volleyball. Both use pretty actresses s their main attraction(which is quite lame since they cant relly swim or play tat well in real life, i tink), and both feature them in skimpy outfits s well. In case u do not noe gals playin vball in real life competition will wear wat will seem like a swimming trunk s their btm n a shirt. So there. I tink its juz gonna raise the awareness of vball s a sport (which a lot of babes play, which is onli relatively true s wif other sports), other than tat prolly relationships stuff which chnl 8 is famous fer. Anyway famous does not equate to good.

Ytd went out aft wrk. Stupid nvr tell mi goin yishun earlier if i knew i prolly wld hav brought my clothes n went straight after wrk zz. Reached there ard 730 then sm sale caught my eye selling berms n shirts. But the patterns din seem nice. Onli beach shorts there. Din bother to c the shirts aft tat. Went to eat then went bowling. Walau dam long lar the wait dunnoe y so many pple bowl nowadays. Ok its juz a friday nite nth else. Waited ard 10 plus then they gave us a lane. Then the lane so noob kip stucking n hanging. Zzz. Played 2 games then zao alrdy cause at tat time 1130 le. Wat does this means? Cabbing home zzz. Walao i hate bowling lar. Ok actually i dun juz tat im frustrated i cannot get my ball to travel the lane the manner i imagine it to. Btw, im nt trying to do sm shaolin soccer or kungfu dunk stunt. Tried it fer 2 games and failed. Perhaps onli 2 balls satisfied myself haha. Out of....42 tries? Nvm nxt time i bowl i tink i go alone bowl. Wa but then quite ex sia. Tsktsk one game close to 4....beta limit myself n nt get too addicted.... And....the lane beside gt 2 couples i tink. Then the guys were wearing handguards n were quite pro lar. Then i tink bfore we started i chose my ball's weight n decided on an 8 pounder. Then the 2 guys were like pointing to the ball n laughing. Zzz. Then my frens called it a sissy ball zzz. I dun care in the end i tried the 12 pound din like it n reverted back to the 8 pounder. Heh. Anyway i saw another gal in another lane using the 8 pounder s well. Hahaha. Went fer prata then went home. Cabbed home then sleep le.

Actually wanted to go swimming today but woke up ard 930. Quite late le. But later definitely goin to run sia. I tink hafta clear my IPPT soon le. Sianz. How m i to run below 945 fer 2.4 run zzz. Dun feel like leh hahah. But i can lar zzz. Oh well. Muz run more liaoz liddat. Sianz din noe i hav to run 21km fer ahm man. Got scammed liaoz. Zzz. Ytd in camp onli run 2.8km. haha no worries, its juz the difference of a decimal point huh?

Hmm...Wanted was alrite. Despite all the hype and hoo-hah, I still couldnt find enuf to register it one of the best movies i've seen. Tat's including the fact tat i dun c many too. But i like the ending. Kinda cool.

Back to wrk was alrite. Time took a little too long fer my liking to pass. Looks like i aint gonna join the gaming competition after all. Haiz. Was so looking forward to it lar. Anyway ali, thx fer the offer on bowling n cycling. I tink i'll prolly make a solo trip one of these days if im relly tat desperate. Till then mayb i'll call sm guys along too. Today, again i n my upperstudy n our fren received praise frm our dy head abt our excellent performance in SAF day. "The lieutenants were all very good!" As quoted frm him. Gaaa...it was kinda easy actually. Im good huh. Heh. Yay then nxt tue goin swensens fer lunch. And of cos 3 days off. hahah. So many days off also dunnoe wat to do sia lol. Wa i tink uni orientation camps will b quite fun....cant wait fer mine...hope my organisers rock big time!! My u/s ORD mood le. Sianz. Now onli left mi to absorb all the rubbish pple throw at mi. At least he dun throw mi in the lurch n go on off or leave. At least he helps a little anyway.

ONE more thing. My com is screwed up. If my senses serve mi well, its the lousy built-in graphics card tat is causing the problems. Nice. Just like my life previously, screwed up. (I nearly wanted to say "previous life" instead of "life previously" lol) At least now, im more or less settled, i tink. I better be huh.

Hmm....my pri 2 tutee's turning out to b quite a handful. Tats bad. Tml's wrk. Tat's nt gd either. I feel like joining sm amateurish gaming competition wif my frens. Tat cld b exciting. Im nt taking off tml. Saving it fer another day. I wan to play bowling n go cycling. I also wan go sentosa tis sat to c the new program event thing. And also play vball. So many things. But no one wans to go boohoo!

Im on off. As of now. No calls frm office(yet), onli msgs frm an idiotic colleague whos like 40 plus or 30 plus. Ytd was SAF day proper. And fer our reception portion it was a resounding success. The onli complaints i heard abt was tat the prawns were not deshelled and that there was not enuf napkins to go ard all of which can prolly b dismissed s insignificant minor grunts from unsatisfied individuals. First the prawns were cereal prawns and who exactly cooks cereal prawns deshelled? Nxt i was one of the last to try the food there and i cld easily find a napkin in sight. Our head said tat CDF commented that they wanted us to do the 2009 SAF day s well so that they din nid to vet. Prolly a compliment, a very good one. Dam, i hear my hp ringing....Ok phew nth big. Onli sm idiots coming to chk the IDS system. As i was saying our reception portion was perfect, quoting frm wat our head said anyway. And he seemed like he was over 10 moons. After we were dismissed at ard 11 plus at nite, i volunteered to go back camp wif sm of the men to unload the stores. And 2 idiots were to sneak into the swimming pool n dumped themselves into the pool in boxers. -.- I and another guy went to help the rest unload stores. Soon done then went home. Prolly reached home at ard 12 plus close to 1.

Argh dam my bro went to reformat the com. Then i had to reinstall everything agn - sp2, antivirus, games etc. Walau then now the auto-restart syndrome of my com seems to be out of control. Oh well. Mayb its time to get a new com. So boring at home. I tink i twisted my back or smth. Whnever i try to twist my body it will hurt a little. Think muz b all the physical wrk i put in fer SAF day zz. Oya then my dy head praised tat i did a gd job. Actually i reverted back to my role of a cue master in the end s my head wasnt confident wif my fren who juz came back frm course to join us. Frm the actually event onwards we din hear his voice anymore and it was all up to us. Aiya actually quite easy one lar. Of course i did it seamlessly. We'll prolly get maybe 2 or 3 more days off aft this s our reward. Rmbr abt mi saying wat i was too nice? Being too gentlemanly doesnt help either. Or rather trying to b. Ha, im afraid tats the horrible but realistic truth.